5 Days of Hell
There are things I should be doing and then there are the things I do.
Mostly they don't line up but sometimes they do. So I was thinking a bit on the things I should not be doing but do anyway. AKA Posting.
The question has always been and will most likely remain to be: What?
What should I post, do I even have anything to say...
Solution
I guess there is a lot a person can post and my inner struggle is no one else's concern. I know myself pretty well, mostly. Ok, I know of me. We meet every week to catch up.
I know that I don't like work. I don't like things that seem like work. I don't like to repeat myself. Yet I am always repeating myself. I never open with the same chess move. I also don't grow much chest hair.
I don't have passions. I don't like things that don't get simpler. I don't care for Superheros. I do not like gatherings that are predetermined. I don't do Christmas, weddings, funerals or birthdays. Children should not.
I obsess for short periods. Something will make me quit. People are ok when they are sleeping. People are ok when I decide they are. I think I am a contradiction.
Does that help? A little.
The solution part 2
I don't see myself doing something for too long, so I figured 5 days is not bad right. 5 days even with one person on an Island I could handle. 5 days of manual labour I could handle - I always said construction is being paid to gym anyway.
Soooooo.....
5 Days of Hell
I will choose a topic. A thing that I post about for at least 5 days out of a week. Not to post the same shit thus repeating my dumbass self but to improve or see if I can walk away with something of value after 5 days.
Maybe I build a new habit. WTF cares. It is something to do, the itch right now.
Or posting about posting about posting about posting about...
I don't like unfinished sentences, alttrough I do those all the time.
Children should not dot.
Children should not get pregnant.
Children should not eat each others.
Children should not be so childish.
Children should not be.
Children should not ask if someone can play with them.
Oh, I see! It's because I didn't understand that there is nothing more after the dot.
Dots are always.
If you need a post. Who you gonna call?
Another post 😝
Yes, children should not.
I still don't get it but okay. :P
Five days to scratch an itch. Is that it? A topic of shoulding all over oneself. Hmmmm. WTfF cares? I’m sure there will be someone. There is always someone. 🤪
mmm, you are right I should not make it too shoulding , I should play it casual. 😋 Thank you.
This and what follows in the descriptions - I can identify with some personally, and others are things I don't notice in myself, if they are there. There's a lot about me that I'm not sure of. I do things by habit, but I'm not habitual. Some of my habits, (like drinking coffee), come and go for long periods of time. I don't think I've ever tried to figure myself out. I go with the flow, and that's always seemed to work, I guess. :)
Merry Christmas, even though you don't celebrate!
Even going with the flow there is a time that you maybe pause and consider how you got there? A lot of mine is more retrospection instead of knowing what my next step will be. Sometimes I wonder if I did a bit more active questioning in the moment would I still end up in the same shit I tend to end up in. :)
Have a good Christmas.
Oh sure, thoughts on "how I got there" pop up at times, but when they do, it's more of a recollection of experiences I've had from the time I was very young. I haven't made many regretful decisions in my life, (though that excludes a couple of bad decisions I made with women), so when I think about the path I took, I don't have any regrets - I just understand that, from the past, I've accepted that I've learned a few things about life from mistakes I've made, but it's outweighed by the decisions I've made that were the right ones. And though not wishing to portray myself as "special" in some way, my life's been pretty complicated at times, but I'm here today and I'm happy.
I think questioning some happening "in the moment," if that moment is from the past, can help us by showing us why it is questionable, and in acknowledging what we should have done instead of what we did at the time, which prepares us to handle it better the next time. Questioning ourselves on what we should and should not do, if some imagined thing, (like being trapped in an elevator), happens in the future is useful if it's part of an overall plan, but as an unanticipated isolated future incident, IMO, a planned response likely won't be sufficient anyway.
It's life. It's got it's ups and downs. "Don't take it too personally" is the best path, IMO. :)
:) Very true. You kind of remind me of the quiet guy at the bar then once he does speak everyone listens as what he says is usually so profound and matter of fact that you just need to buy them another beer. 🍻🍻🍻
Thanks! I usually am pretty quiet these days, but I still have my outbursts from time to time. But I was somewhat a smart-ass and fairly mouthy in my teen years and a bit after that though. I changed a lot when I went into the military, and then later, in college. 🍻🍻🍻
Oh no wonder... I also don't like doing things for too long. I get bored easily thus my patience level is not so high as others around me. Lol. But I can wait when I need to wait or if I decide to procrastinate. Aren't we all just living breathing contradictions? :P
I don't even bother with posting if I don't have anything to post about. Why bother posting? Haha. You need the upvotes?
Something to do I think. Maybe a bit of fomo also since it is a good time to make steem without investing. Usually, I would end up then instead fiddling with some useless thing, reading , play a game etc not unlike the time I waste now on steem. I also do tend to start a lot of "projects" or interests and never see them through, posting itself is just a distraction but one that still lets me have a sense of accomplishment.... I dunno, right now it is just a thing I do. Like almost everything, I just do them and in the end they turn to shit but that is ok because it passed the time :)
Oh I see, that fomo feeling. I have that too but in terms of the success and age thing. Most of the time I just let the fomo pass me by. Lol.