Struggling CamGirl Feels
There used to be a time not too long ago when I would cam for 3-5 hrs a day and make enough to support myself and my little cat family and computer party comfortably.
Then viewerbots came around and fucked up my way of camming...
More than anything it made the whole thing seem...pointless.
If no one can find me online because I'm trapped behind so many models inflating their room counts with bots then what was the point?
I went from an easy few hundred in my room to now, where I'm lucky to have 100.
I've been forced to start split camming again
[that's where you use software so you can split your live stream on to multiple sites...I try and do about 4]
Which I don't hate but its....boring....
I hate being bored.....I love entertaining a room of people but the added time and effort to get that audience as of late has been....tiring
and taxing on my ego
.......and my want to be creative as a camgirl
[after all who am I creating for if no one can find me?]
Obviously my earnings have taken a serious hit as a result of all of this.
I'm doing a lot more video and custom work which is good....
But it makes me sad.
I feel like its going to be really hard for me to get back into doing shows the way I like to
[loudly, publicly with fun and merriment]
Since I feel pressured to do private shows more as a result of the low traffic from sites overall.
I've said it before and I'll say it again, they're destroying the cam world.
And I just don't have the stomach to cheat and use them...
Hence my conflicted attitude as of late when it comes to camming
The whole thing has just made me sour with it....
And I really hope I get over it and am able to continue to do what I love in a better context
But for now I'm in limbo....
And for the first time in 5 years I'm struggling.
I know theres a few things I could do better to help myself out. Like keep a better schedule for when I am online, maybe create more videos and overall content ...
but its been tough.
I hate not being the cammodel I want to be and am.
I hate being only half of what I could be
And goddamned do I hate inequality
And what is the problem exactly?
I do not know much about cam-chats, never used it...
viewerbots. its like cams on steroids. i dont like taking steroids soooo
Great pics, suck about the cam stuff, do you have a link to yours? Are you vaping a nautilus?
you look amazing! i hate the bots too even though its in my name lol
All that and Canadian huh ?
Bots are the debbil! It's what suck the most here, too. I do hope they find a way to curb the behavior.
Is this why you're so down on bots and scammers, plagiarists and the like on here? I'm with you all the way, as it happens, just find it interesting to hear the viewpoint of someone on your side of the camera, we don't often get to hear those opinions, so keep sharing them... The fact that you're gorgeous is a bonus, obviously ;)
yes. but its a personal thing. i have always loathed cheating and inequality in job markets overall. its why i started camming. cos at the time it was all about you and your ability to hustle..not your ability to pay for fake traffic so you can get ahead by lying to your fans about your popularity!
and ill always dislike plagiarism since ive always been an artist [i dance choreograph sing write music paint and draw as well as cammodeling]
I've had this hatred of cheating ever since I was really small. I remember kicking adults in the shins when they picked me up while playing football when I was under 10... I should point out I'm very short still, so it must have been really tempting for them! But I'm with you all the way, do things properly, show your own work, whatever it is, take pride in the successes and listen to the critics - even if you then ignore them! Because that way, it's all yours, you own it all, and it informs who you are and who you become... Man, that sounds like a load of hippy bollocks, but it's true. Cheating deprives the rest of us of the chance to do things properly, I guess that's the bottom line...
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