#Ulog: HOW I SAY GOODBYE

How I say goodbye most times is with the silent aching of my heart. The blank stare and the wistful thinking of how something with so much potential died a sudden death and we felt no remorse or obligation to tend our wounds or say our final goodbyes or tell eachother how beautiful it was before it turned into what it is now.
How I say goodbye most times is with regret and never what I truly felt. Something so beautiful stirring up the beast in me. Sometimes I take much of the blame in silence and voice out violently the ones that overwhelm me. And I ask myself, "what do I do with the whispers of these memories in my head? They are but sweet nothings."
Sometimes I say goodbye months after it's over. I might have given up my anger and insecurities but never my love...never my love. It's important to me. I persue it vehemently and persistently.Like a blind bull drunk in a passionate rage,I race to the edge, and most times meet my end.
Sometimes I say goodbye and wonder why. I could stay and overcome my fears. I could fight for something and not deem it the responsibility of chance or God to align my stars. Sometimes I wonder why I should take responsibility of my feelings and never act on them. I wonder why? I wonder how and when it would end and something in my head whispers: "you say goodbye when you let a good thing pass you by..."