Facing my fears...

Today...I did not dance...it is my first day home after being away for a whole month.
I could not wait to go to my favorite beach and dance my prayers,
but when I got there, I was overcome with feelings of confusion.

Voices in my head asking me who I am and who do I dance for?
Who do I channel energy to and for?

I answered myself firmly that I dance for the Great Central Sun my daily prayers...
As I stated that, clouds started to gather in front of the Sun and although this was my mere perception of life, I kind of felt disheartened.
The energy also has changed from the last time I had danced here.

Although Tigerlillies were blooming and blossoming, and grass was growing all over the sand, I felt unwelcome in this space. It was my sacred space a month ago and yet so much has changed.

I noticed houses I had never noticed before and I got eerie visions and feelings at their sight.
I am still stunned and shocked, but the words..."this too shall pass" echoed through my being.

Maybe it signals a time for reflection and quietude. Time for nurturance and self-love.
Maybe it is time to find a new sacred space, a new place where my Spirit can dance my hearts desires...
I do have this deep wish, inside of the depths of my heart, to find that place where I can dance daily as well as find rest for myself in it - as it will be my home as well.

When one meditates in a certain spot one raises the energy of that place and the surroundings. If it is done over a long period of time, the energy of the place truly becomes filled with magic. But when you stop and you go back a while later, it might not be the same as it was before. The energy has changed...and it might just be my perception, but a very important ethic I practice is- "go where one is celebrated", "walk on the path of the least resistance".

Today...I felt resistance and It might have been to signal a change in my Life direction and to the fact that Life is a constant change of beingness.

All will be will and even these moments of reflection has to happen in Life.

I feel gratitude for my wolfdog for being such a wonderful guide and friend to me.
He was with me and I gave him a good wash in the Ocean and I played with him.
He helped me to find my way back to my heart and gratitude filled my heart at knowing I am not alone here facing my fears.
Tomorrow will be another day and wishfully I will find my spot in the sunshine to dance my prayers again.
Thank you for listening!
lots of organic love
Nomvula the Greeninglady