dreams
Have you've been dreaming all the time? To have a better life, beautiful career and beautiful story? We all dreams because who else don't want a wonderful life. But my dreams are far that couldn't be reach.
I close my eyes then I can see myself smiling, so happy living with my family. What a wonderful feeling is it. YES! We have a delicious food and my parents just enjoying their old life. By having a dream I can make a life that I desire, I can make a beautiful world. Many reasons that can make me smile, many reasons that can make myself contented. I won't think about a problem that can make me sad. There's no more darkness awaits me while opening a new door. If people see me maybe they think I'm crazy because I'm smiling while close my eyes alone. I think of not to wake up. I hope this is my real life not the life when I wake up. It's not that I'm loosing my mind but because I'm tired to have a life with full of fails. I don't have a life like them, popular, have a job and can earn money well. It's so sad but my dreams are fading, maybe it's time to wake up. Yes, I woke up while my tears fell. I realize that I need to find a job. I must work so that I can make my stomach full. My shoulder is so heavy to carry on, there's no hope for me. I have failed many times, no one accepts me. I have no longer a family to rely on. I want to cry out loud to express that my burden is too much to handle. I gave everything to reach my dreams but still not enough. What kind of hard I must do to have a life like others. What kind of skill I must learn to make them believe that I'm worthy to join their team. Even people near me always contradicts me. They underestimated my worth. I did nothing to them but they kept on pulling me down by their sharp words. I don't know what they're thinking, why they wanted me to suffer. I just cried and cried then I close my eyes again.
I see a beautiful life awaits me again. I won't give up because the shimmering lights lead to my future. I know I will make through it, I know there's an end to it. I just need to believe it and hold my dreams tightly. I won't let go when the time comes someday. When an obstacle slap my face again, I will close my eyes again. Instead of crying I will make myself smiling again and again. I don't need them, what I need is myself to step forward. I won't step them but I'll just avoid them. I know someday, someday I will be right by believing my dreams. They think this is wrong or am I wrong. But no one knows unless I won't try. Everyone can make a world what they desire when they stick to it. Yes there are obstacles but those are just a test to make me a better man in the future when I would have a new life.
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Just talking to myself and expressing others feeling.
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