DEPRESSION

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It's a self emotion, being afraid to do mistake, tired of understanding their expectation that is never end. You began to feel uncomfortable, start to feel pain because of their discontentment. You have this feeling but you're afraid to let it out. You'll afraid that they wont understand you because you're the one acted all the time that was strong. No one really understand why they end their lives because of depression.
Just recently a teacher decided to end up her life because of too many work, the head always ordered her all the time and get mad at her. She didn't sleep well because of work, and in the morning she rush on school because her head called her. How tragic to end her life because of this, she wanted to be a teacher but when she already into it, she let go of it. One of the reason of this depression is because of our society. Sometimes it made us feel that we don't belong into them. Giving us many work that we can be like them. Pressuring us about work even though we are just learning. If you'll make your imagination deeper, you'll realize that it's not you who is wrong but the society is teaching you how to do wrong.
I'm writing this now for you who is suffering from depression. I want to tell you that you are not alone. Always think that someone loves you very much that they can't live without your presence. Value those who loves you because they are more pathetice if you leave them. If you start thinking that your tired, go out with friends and treat yourself to travel. Leave your work, work will always be there if you're looking into it. Don't bind yourself of others expectations, bind yourself in your own expectations. It's you who understand your capability, not them. Try to talk someone and have a drink to let the emotions flow out. Someone will listen to you because they don't want someone be imprisoned by depression. Please love yourself instead of loving others that made you concerned about how they felt. This is your life, not owned by others. You will laugh and cry because you want it, not do it because someone wanted it.
If someone hurt you just leave them, they are not worthy for you. Go to the people who will understand you. Always remember you have a home to return to. Family will matter about your life not by your work. At first they'll be disappointed but it will not last for long. If you start feeling like this, always go out to have a conversation. Isolating yourself won't do any good, everyone will understand you and help you. Trust me you'll realize how lovely to live life with a smile.

Thank you for reading.