SELF- INTRODUCTION POST

Hi everyone I'm Ameerah Dollie, a 28 year old female residing in one of the suburban areas in Cape Town. I'm currently working online from home doing any jobs I can find like joining PTC sites and completing online surveys as well as captcha solving. Its not like I can exactly go out during the National Lockdown. I'm passionate about looking after babies and old age, especially cancer patients. Even though they are particularly needful and dependent on one for a lot on a daily basis, I find it an honor being able to help them. I lost my grandmother this year. She was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma (MM) in August last year and the first 3 months was uncomfortable for her but okay, its in the last tof wo months that she really suffered. For those of you who might not have known, Multiple Myeloma is a seriously dangerous terminal cancer. Thus far there is no definitive cure for it and its causes of development is still unknown. My grandmother Safea Dollie passed away at the age of 77 on January 19 2020 at 01h30AM at St Luke's Hospice in Kenilworth.

I lived with my grandmother for most of my life, she raised me and I regard her as my other mother. It would be truthful of me to say that the day my ma passed away is the day my heart officially broke. A break in relationship by means of someone crossing over into the next realm is something really hard to come by. Despite it having been more than two months already, the emotional wounds are still very raw and I guess I'm just gonna have to be patient with myself. Its going to take a long while before I can say I'm okay again.

My emotional scars run soul deep, I'm battling with insomnia and depression. I eat much more comfort foods and I almost always cry myself to sleep. Safea was the most phenomenal woman I know. She possessed great leadership skills, a teacher and a role model indeed. All the good traits and characteristics I have is because of my ma leading by example and coaxing me into never being fake.

When she was diagnosed, I had a successful interview and was scheduled to start working for one of the biggest retail food chains in South Africa. My ma's health slowly started deteriorating after she was diagnosed and she personally asked me to promise her that I will be there to see to her until the very end and I accepted it. I made a vow remained true to my word. At this point I knew that I have to prioritize. I had to ask myself what is more important? Looking after my loving grandmother in her old age or chasing after a high earning job? It was a no brainer. The very same morning I gave the company my reference number and told them " I know I was scheduled to start working today but my grandmother has been diagnosed with terminal cancer. I am not just going to leave her like that beside herself now that she's in her time of need. I took on the responsibility to see to all her wants and needs. She's in her old age and she is my priority. I'm giving reference to someone else."
This is an older picture of me

and here's another one

I grew up without my dad being present. He never played an active role in my life. It might shock you,but this photo was taken just a few months before I met my dad Ernest Michael September. He is a teacher who teaches English, Afrikaans, Mathematics, Sociology and Criminology. I met him and heard his voice on the phone for the very first time at the age of 21 and things went well but the relationship was short lived. He's still alive though but always in denial about the fact that I'm his daughter. My siblings are still being located and creaking out of the cracks. God alone knows just how many we are in total.
Here is personal favorite of mine

This was the best decision I've ever made. I got to spend my time with her and give her full support and undivided attention. It was an honor for me. Challenging but rewarding. I wouldn't have had it any other way. Despite my ma being needful, I was just so happy that she was still here with me. Having very little sleep never affected me and there were some nights where I would experience no sleep at all. As exhausted as I was, I managed to hide this very well.

When she would call on me at any time in the Godly hours of the morning, I never got frustrated. I always awoke from m deepest sleep and approached her with a broad, genuine smile to see to her needs.
Be it to walk her to the toilet when she was still fully capable of walking, doing diaper changes when she was completely bedridden, washing, changing her clothes, freshening up, pampering her or even just sitting and talking to her believe me when I say I didn't mind at all. Truth be told as hard as it was I would do it all over again.

When my ma's health started deteriorating more rapidly as the cancer spread, she needed a particular injection every week to function properly such as being able to i nteract without sounding like she just suffered a stroke and being able to comprehend things easily. Unfortunately this was something which the medical aid did not cover and I had to do what I could to improve her quality of life. I'm not going to lie the price was steep, but this did not matter to me in the least. This is when I decided to use my housing funds to pay for the weekly injections, additional medications which the medical aid did not cover and other items to make her life more comfortable. Diapers, baby bottles, glycerine for the lesions in her mouth and the list goes on.
My ma was a very honest, outspoken and fun loving person. If I could go back and change anything in my life I wouldn't change a thing. I never had to wonder where I could go to for a hug, a good listening ear or generally just someone to ask advice from or complain to. My ma was always right there.
She is also the one who taught me how to go about doing things quickly yet efficiently and how to cook a delicious, filling meal without wasting electricity. Below is a picture of how my ma used to look when she was still very healthy

As mentioned at the start of the introduction I am currently doing a wide array of online jobs and I think I should add that poetry is also one of my strong points. All my poems are original and will not be found anywhere else. I am also willing to do poetry for other at an agreed upon price of course.
Apart from that, I'm also busy doing nursing studies at the moment in hope to eventually make a living out of doing old age nursing and experiencing the honor of it all again.

More from me in my next post, stay tuned.
Signed,
Ameerah Dollie