My Lost Apache

You are the end of a long quest
after a long struggle in the mine
I found in my worn-out state

You're not a shimmering gem
but hunted for millions of bachelors
whatever charisma you have
until my search is over to you

but it's a shame now that you're scratchy
the scratch I made for putting you haphazardly

now you're gone
carrying a scar that I could not wipe out
creating a wound in my heart that keeps on moaning

my custom
you are gone
without saying goodbye you go in silence

my custom
you are gone
transfers to wise virtuous hands

my custom
you are gone
please come back Darling
let me remove the scratches of your wounds with my blood and my sweat

my custom
you are gone
please come back Darling
if I have to exchange my hands and feet with you
I will undoubtedly
because you are my custom
you are my life

Kragilan-Serang, April 7, 2016
for the gems of my lost heart
inspired by Zainuddin's painting for Hayati (Van der Wijk Ship's Drowning)