Talked about #Cyprus sunsets yesterday ☀️I didn’t have real holidays since then. ...

... https://steemit.com/loverevolution/@mammasitta/transforming-sexual-energy-chanting-nuns-in-a-cyprus-monastary.....That’s what I wrote 2 years ago : “How can you NOT think about sex, when you listen to nuns chanting their songs to prove their devotion.” I am writing too much about #LOVE and feel sometimes a bit tired about the “lovey-dovey” topics.

So, I have to admit that #sex is on my mind for a few weeks now, like in my #teenage days somehow. Maybe I am in the middle of age crisis or whatever because it can't be a menopausal state of mind. I am done with those damn annoying days.

I had three, yes only 3!!! men in over 20 years. I am a "One-On-One" very loyal and faithful woman, the moment I choose my partner, as long as he chose me as well. I am only attracted to men who fall for me big time or at least my instincts keep me up and trying because of an unexplainable feeling of deeper connection. Otherwise I would loose interest or chase some pretty and much more fun females, for friendship of course :)
Pfffff! Did I just say this?

After my break up 2 years ago, I was pretty much non existant and had massive resentment towards any kind of "male hormones" getting close to me. I had no interest in male "creatures", I will never understand anyways at all! I couldn’t locate my own body nor did I find myself sexy or attractive. No wonder with 10 kilos more than I have now. The too voluptuous me had to vanish quickly. What really happened? I simply lost myself trying to walk eggshells for too long, to please everybody around me, forgetting what actually is right for me. My emotions went down the cave, hiding....No more!

I was sleeping a long and deep passive aggressive sleep. I needed this time of total abstinance for myself. Sex sounded boring and I had no interest at all. I am not easy to find a reason to share my most speacial, privat “ME”.

Then I woke up ..big time and feel great about a new sensation and experience. I finally remembered who I am.

The world started flowing so smoothly like techno or good deep house and I realised...read on in Part2

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