Coffee black, no sugar
A glimpse of my day: I don’t wanna wake up. Wrong place running out of time. People? So many people anxiety. Pointless activities. Message from mom. Kill me small talk awkwardness. Getting lost in the dark. Tearful walking home. So little time. Cold shivers under the blanket. Mud coffee (pour four teaspoons of ground coffee in the cup, boil hot water, pour the hot water on the coffee, mix it well, let it sit for few minutes and enjoy while making disgusted faces). Epson, lavender salt bath for feet. Low energy tapping away on the keyboard.
It will suck for a while. More than one way. However, no poor me, pity me. Be it my fuck you fuel. You know? When you take all the crappy stuff and turn it into a booster instead. Fuck it. I will walk on my pain, step the stepping stone and will my goals into reality. Right now I might not feel much of the boosting. Over time though when closer of approaching the destination.
What else is there anyway? Failure is not an option. Giving up would certainly be one. Even worse. Not giving a chance. Forward and trough is the way.
It will suck for a while. More than one way. However, no poor me, pity me. Be it my fuck you fuel. You know? When you take all the crappy stuff and turn it into a booster instead. Fuck it. I will walk on my pain, step the stepping stone and will my goals into reality. Right now I might not feel much of the boosting. Over time though when closer of approaching the destination.
What else is there anyway? Failure is not an option. Giving up would certainly be one. Even worse. Not giving a chance. Forward and trough is the way.
Song of the day: 6LACK - PRBLMS
These images depict quite a mood.
I couldn't quite put it into words the vibe I felt in that place. All I know. I need to go back there. Thank you for stopping by and commenting.
I have noticed that you tend to break into this stream-of-consciousness style of writing when you are stressed about something. I love it; it's so raw and real. I feel like I am experiencing your thoughts as they happen. And as @thatkidsblack pointed out already, the photos set the mood perfectly.
I was raised in a culture which fully embraced the small talk thing and it still didn't make me hate it any less. That said, after a while it became second nature to me. Now it feels like it comes from a completely different part of my brain, and it is on autopilot.
That's where you want to get. A few well-rehearsed, human-sounding scripts and some very thin margins of deviation to make you not seem completely rude. Try to appear polite, but busy; pleasant, but not friendly. Once you have this facade nicely constructed, it will go to work for you and you will hardly notice it is happening. In this manner, I am capable of making it through every day with social energy left to spare.
If you find yourself off-script for a casual workplace conversation, walk away as soon as possible. If a certain person insists upon breaking the script repeatedly, stare blankly as they speak, and respond only with dismissive grunts. If you can have coffee, this is a great time to take a sip and walk away. Half-smiles and nods are useful as well.
This method should pretty reliably convey the message that you are there for work, while ensuring that only the most hopelessly integrated cogs take issue with you. Those are the ones to avoid most anyway; they are the most determined to suck you in. Misery loves company after all.
I do? Hehe ^^'
I was raised in culture where if someone asks how are you? you tell the full story. Here someone asks a question, but they sometimes don't even bother to hear the answer. Small talk facade xD
Misery loves company indeed. I've noticed some people will be so happy to talk with someone how shit everything is and then there are those who just do their job or even better do their job and enjoy each other's company.
It sounds you are in a real low mood,even your photographs are monochrome. People say that winter make people low too. But hopefully soon is spring the whole body and mind will recover. The photographs despite being black and white are beautiful, love the buildings at water side and that reflection of sky in water. Do not let your mood win your spirit and mind, you need to be stronger, it is just the period of time and it comes but goes away, like zebra who has black and white stripes. Having black now we know that there is definitely the white one and it is approaching. Do not give up! Take care ...
Hey @stef1!
Yes. I've noticed that about myself as well, but the good news is spring arrives earlier here than back at home. So hopefully soon it will be less gloom and doom.
Thank you so much for your kind words! No giving up :) Hope you are doing well yourself.
As allways awesome song of the day 👍
Aww, thank you tx :) I am really glad you enjoy them.
Hi m31. Four spoons of coffee.I would be wired for days on one cup.Just keep going and think positive thoughts.
Oh yeah! Four spoons barely keep me in less zombie levels xD Trying my best not to give in to full on negative thoughts about the whole thing.
I don't drink coffee any more but I would have wanted that Turkish coffee, strong and tasty.
The photos are amazing. Well done!
Oh my! How did you manage to quit coffee? I can't imagine how it would work for me without it at this point. I need my dose of instant boost in the mornings and sometimes evenings too when I want to stay up longer.
Thank you for visiting and readying my ramblings :)
It wasn't easy, I have to admit. I have low blood pressure and giving up on coffee was a big deal.
At first I had to convince myself that coffee wasn't good for me and prepare mentally for the big day. I had a few hours. The next day when I started my coffeeless journey I had headaches, felt dizzy, shivering, light headed, you name it. I guess I expected all the withdrawal symptoms.
It got easier after the first few days and now I'm free. When my bloodpressure drops to 105/62 them I have a black tea which also have caffeine but less and I know I'm not going to get addicted.
It's hard indeed but not impossible :)
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