Status the only way

I kind of see it now. Like literally every other interaction with a human being involves status. Whether I like it or not. And I don't like it. In fact I despise it. Working out, spreading my body, putting on an aura of confidence. Every. Fucking. Time. No. Just let me retreat to my despair and misery. Let me dream of the dancing sunsets. Don't shake my entire system and put me through hell to permanently get there. Ok. Maybe do that. But. You know. Just. Go easy. I'm scared. Lol. I'm just a lil bit more scared of not trying. Sometimes. Okay maybe. Huh. What. Yeah man. Listen. I gotta go. But. Hit me up. If you are feeling like a pimp. Please do not hit me up if you are feeling like shit. At least without a plan to get out of it. I am already feeling shit. Stuck in shit. Around shit. Can't get myself out of shit. So yeah. Either inspire me to. Or inspire us to. Or I don't know. Listen man. I gotta go. See you in Marbella. Or Ibiza. Or Tagomago. Or Mallorca. Which one is it again? I don't really know. Maybe just anywhere cheap and by the beach. Is that settling for less? Not when it is kaizening. Ahh what is this game and what are its rules. Different one for different moments.