Meeting Old Friends and Reflections
Dear Daniel,
I come to you this lazy Sunday afternoon waiting to meet up with a friend from middle school and high school. It’s been over 20 years since I saw her and to say things are different from when we were younger is an understatement. When I was 20 I wasn’t speaking to my family. Now that it’s 20 yrs later she’s in similar situation to what I was going through then.
I was able to heal and have boundaries with my family once more but it was a long journey. I didn’t ever doubt my mom’s love for me. I might doubt their respect. They seem to have it for my younger sisters but not me. You can take what you get and be grateful for it. They house me in spite of my illness and support me in the support of my dreams. That’s a lot more than others get on the indie artist scene.
So today I am very grateful for my stability and my ability to create and for the most part, peaceful co-existence with my parents and aunt.
Beth was a friend in a hostile environment. Middle school. I should call it for what it was. Hell on earth. I had things put in my hair. I was ostracized. I was punched in the face. It was daily minefield of obstacles to overcome and survive. Survive I did.
These days I think about the internet world and how it has upped the ante socially. There’s really no place to get away unless unplug altogether. Even at my Eighth grade ceremony Robert Ford and Betty Flood called me fat. Looking back I can see it for it was. A two bit hood and a girl fatter than me grasping at straws. I often thank god I did not grow up with internet.
I would not come to know the internet until I was an adult. And I would utilize for business until my mid-thirties. I have whole host of filmmaker friends and writer friends. And in a way some places are like high school still.
I never managed to crack the inner circle locally. But for what it’s worth I’m known. What I’m known for is marketing and mental health advocacy. It’s frustrating but I know outside of my geographic location I’m known for screenwriting and filmmaking. And it’s those place I love most.
I found out All In the Family was selected for a local film festival. That’s nice because if my family wants to see it they can now. I will also be taping my mental health advocacy talk show Recovery Unplugged at that convention. I don’t look to take home any awards, they just don’t respect me as a filmmaker. I will be selling my books at that convention as well.
There are people I will look forward to seeing. But what I’m really looking forward to is working with all the talent I met at Indie Gathering and AOF Megafest. I’m hoping my friend gets here soon, because I am looking forward to visiting with her.
Sincerely,
Amy McCorkle
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