It's My Fault Mother!!!

Each and everyday is a struggle. For the past 29 yrs... its been a struggle. I've been trying so hard to please you Mom, but I've never gotten anywhere... unfortunately. I've always wanted to be close to you but it seems I'm only a daughter... just a role I needed to play for you to call yourself a Mother.

I've been trying so hard to tell you what I'm feeling but it seems my tears dont look so genuine to you. I've done my obligations for the family but like what the song says.. "Each and everyday is a struggle. For the past 29 yrs... its been a struggle. "My best is not good enough". Each and everyday is a struggle.

Dont get me wrong.. I had my fair share of mistakes and dissapointments to you and Dad.... and Ive paid for them... I think... Losing a husband after having a baby is not typical. I deserve all the scold from you about my harsh decisions... but I, too is deeply wounded. I've never healed coz you wont let me too..

Each and everyday I'm being reminded ITS MY FAULT!
All Im asking is to know if I have a Mother who truly cares for me.... supposed to be building me and supporting me... not dragging me down...

Now I dont know where I stand... how to become a daughter and a mother the same time.... alone.

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