The one time that I had to call the police for a "terrorist" situation

"Terrorists" are not just people with guns set out to be violent and coercive on others. The one that entered my life was an innocent, unarmed petite. She was a deaf-mute who doesn't speak the same language as I do. Cutting the story short - yes we went out together and had our good times. It's amazing that relationships can be formed without any spoken language. Physical expression is actually far more potent, barring the lack of communicative details.

However, it did not last very long even though my desire to protect was in high-gear. She was a beautiful, but very troubled individual. She treats me very well, but had in many occasions breached my privacy - checking in on my own private messages and even responding to them. Not only that, she had also trespassed into my property a few times, always refusing to leave upon request.

It was a binary situation: be together or die. And no, she would never hurt me. Only herself. I had quickly found out about my predicament after the first time I tried to call the relationship off, a couple of months into the standalone-complex. It's certainly traumatic and possibly the worst time of my life, watching somebody I care about trying to commit suicide on Skype. It was too much for me, and I compromised by dragging the relationship on a number of times. The drama went on for almost a year.

What I can say is that being deaf and mute is possibly the worst kind of handicap anyone can have. It's a lifetime of second-guessing, miscommunication, and especially, isolation. All these while being able to observe life in all its beauty. Here's another layer of complexity: she's totally incapable of working and integrating with society. She just does not trust anyone, generally.

Suffice to say that her behaviour comes from her unfortunate experiences being taken advantage of, probably once too many times. Imagine what's that like for inner self-confidence, especially when scrolling through the "normalcy" of her social media feed.

From that perspective, I think I can understand why she's extremely clingy and controlling. But there came a point when I just could not take it anymore. My life was reduced into a very schizophrenic, fearful world for a time. She just could not let go. Sometimes she would just burn money to get onto the next flight just to see me. Like a "terrorist", she can never be reasoned with.

For months, I was stuck in some mental prison with no way out. Plus, I did not want to waste anyone's time dragging them into a problem I've got myself into.

It was also a tricky situation for me - she was emotionally unstable and helpless. There's no way that I would use any physical force on her, no matter how irrational that may be. So despite my dislike of the authority, I had to call it in to get the matter sorted once and for all. Doing it covertly on a bright sunny day, I made sure to seal off any access to sharp objects around the house.

When the local police came over to my place, she was caught by surprise and immediately scrambled to have the higher ground over the situation. She somehow found a knife that I forgot to hide. But luck has it, the handle was loose, breaking off before she could cut herself.

She was then removed from my premises, and I subsequently refused any responsibility on her thereafter. The police actually handled it civilly and respectfully. In fact, they did not even want to apprehend or put handcuffs on her. Before disappearing from my radar indefinitely, she did send me a couple of final messages, apologising for everything that she has done and assured me that she will try to look after herself.

To this day, I still feel (pretty damn) sad and sorry that it had to end like that. I wish there was a better way.

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_{So yeah, that was the one time that I gave power to the authorities to solve my problem. Personally, I still feel it's a very terrible thing to do and very intrusive. But it happened. Perhaps I was at my limit and just could not figure out any good solutions.}

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