If Only I'm Just Dreaming (An Original Poem)

Lately I've been feeling out of sorts.
A lot has been weighing on my mind since that week.
The things you did, the words you said, they got me so confused.
And now I'm pondering if this was all just your ruse.

I always thought to never trust a guy who tells a girl they're beautiful
as if that's the most normal thing to do or say.
As much as it's music to the ears of women, to me they're more like warning bells sounding beware,
Because at the end of the day, it's the girl that will cry, and the guy that doesn't really care.

But because of the things you did, I just can't help but wonder.
And I keep thinking of you even when I don't intend to.
I gotta stop this now, because I know this feeling very well,
I know where this ends, but I'm still getting caught under your spell.

This situation, I don't want it, it's not supposed to be like this.
Once again, I'm in dichotomy. My heart and mind just don't seem to go the same way.
"Leave me be", says my mind, "I don't want you here."
But ever so stubborn, my heart whispers, "I will keep you near.."

Tell me that it isn't real. Tell me it's just a fantasy.
Tell me it's just a dream, and maybe, just maybe, it's okay to keep dreaming.
Because there's no danger if it's not real.
I won't really fall if it's just make-believe what I feel.

And if it's not a dream, and you're just playing around.
I'm telling you now that my heart isn't something to toy with.
Because my heart is weak, it falls faster than normally,
So I can't let my guard down, I gotta keep these walls around me.

And if the feeling's real, and you're trying to get to me.
It's gonna be hard, because I don't intend to give up at all.
I have every reason not to ever let you begin,
Even if you find every conviction, I can't let you barge in.

And as much as I enjoy such kind of attention, I gotta ask you to stop.
I don't want to misinterpret, I don't want to get my hopes up again.
Because seeing how you are, I don't even think it's likely
that a guy like you would ever go for a girl like me.

And now if it was all up to me, I'd make this all just part of a dream,
A dream that's gotten out of hand and I need to snap out of.
So now, wake me up, because I'm falling fast, and I don't want to.
No, I don't want to, especially not with you.

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