This year has been so overwhelming! I've always been the type of person who focuses on being proactive If you want something in life. Make it happen.
Make it work out!
But this year has made me realize that we have such little control over our lives.
I'm not saying you shouldn't try, Or you shouldn't do your best to get what you want. But it's made me realize that sometimes you are powerless to your situation.

Of course, You can choose to learn and grow from things, Or let them drag you down.

The World Is So Unfair!

We all know that.
But sometimes I feel it's easy to overlook and forget that. We become so "Entitled." Getting upset when things aren't dealt in a way we see as fair.
The reality is, The universe doesn't care about us. Or care about who is getting a better or worse situation. Things just happen. Out of our control. And we have to learn to deal with these things.

You Can't Control Everything

You can't control other people; You can't control every circumstance. And you can't control the random events that seem to happen.

But you can control how you react, How you feel and what you do about things.

This year I felt this a lot. I did everything I could to save my relationship of six years, But He couldn't forgive me for all the past mistakes I made. Even though I had completely changed on those things. Ultimately it was out of my control, and our relationship fell apart.
I couldn't force him to try if he didn't want to.

I also had a family member become extremely sick. Again out of my control. Luckily she's better now. But I couldn't prevent it Or make it go away.
And of course, With @lauralemons We couldn't force her to stay here if she didn't want to. It was out of our control.

It's heartbreaking because sometimes no matter how proactive we are, We are still "screwed." And we won't get what we want no matter how much we fight it Or try to make it work. But also sometimes it's not even about us. It's about what others want,

Life Forces us to move forward

We can't just abandon every responsibility of our lives when something goes wrong. While I'd rather just lay in bed all day. Because I haven't wanted to do much else.
I have to get work done; I have to do my taxes otherwise I won't be able to maintain my self-employment. While I'm not ready to just put things aside for a minute, I know I have to.

This year has been so rough. And while there are a million things I "Wish" I could do. I know that the only thing I really can do, Is to keep trying and hope that next year is better. And work hard to make the things I can control better!
Things are just rough right now.

@Lauralemons Friends are raising money to have Laura Cremated and Other things to be taken care of! Here is the Go Fund Me for it.

Note: If you want to donate SBD Or Steem, You can send me the funds on here, Let me know they are for Laura, And give me the name you want me to put on it, And I will donate USD on the page. I'm trying to help in any way I can, and I hope this will make things easier for her friends. I will also post a receipt of your donation :)