Excessive Adulation
Never be afraid of your passion because no matter how it draws you to the deepest level of involvement, eventually it will end. Live with it; explore to its deepest value. Be fully involved at least once in your lifetime, because things aren't made to happen again. Feel the fear of believing that you might someday lose the only thing that you're dependent on, and never have to find it again with some bouts of neediness and emptiness. The more you're involved the deeper the dependency, the stronger the fear and the greater the effort of securing it - these are all part of the package. Just when the world promises nothing but changes, fear heightens, knowing that your passion would remain perpetually strong.
Nobody likes to live in fear but sometimes, it's imaginary. Being futuristic won’t help when emotions are involved. Emotions are deceiving- it's temporary, but it’s making itself appear permanent. Anyone who feels a certain emotion can go on a protest, fighting for his conviction that it would last because it feels so strong, as if it doesn't seem to end. But I cannot blame them for telling so, because they are overpowered with it. It's true that emotions are making us weak, but accepting that fact strengthens our defense. At least it won’t hurt to feel the pain, as long as you're really facing and living with it. We should not endure it while carrying the faintest heart everyday with the strong desire to make it end. It must be something to explore, to experience, to feel until you are used with the feeling. And just when you're about to accept it as a part of you, it already goes away as swiftly as a blink. I never thought it would end. I was also a victim of "permanent thinking." But nothing is really permanent, even our thoughts and mindset.
After a roller coaster ride of emotional binges, it’s time to tell myself that I should have given my best, if I only knew that what I felt was not permanent. I didn't give the best of my involvement, but I'm supposed to, because it may never happen again. After all, I got nothing to lose.
I thought I would love to eat ice cream forever. But I wake up one day loving pizza. That's how it goes...
Acceptance is most important when processing grief or anger. Furthermore I think it's always better to regret the things you did, than regretting the things you didn't do. Keep your chin up @kathleenapostol !! "No fear, no regrets" is a mantra that has been very helpful to me.
Thank you buddy! You are right. the only regret that we will face is the regret of not doing the things that we must do. Life is such an adventure. Better regret experiencing something at least we learned our lessons.