Today is 12 Years of Recovery from Methamphetamine

in #recovery7 years ago

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On this day in 2005 was my first day without Meth. I used that drug for almost 5 years straight. I was trapped in a sea of guilt, shame and remorse for the life that I had built for myself. I was a total wreck. I was psychotic and delusional. It had warped my fantastic brain in ways that would stun the best neurologist.

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My Life Stats 2005


I was 24.
Homeless.
126 lbs. on a medium frame made me look like a skeleton.
I couldn't eat.
I couldn't sleep.
I lied.
I stole.
I cheated.
I broke the hearts of people who believed in me.
I was broke, spending every last dime to get high.


Fast forward to 2017, I have so much to live for now. I can hold a regular job. I have a roof over my head. Food to eat. I get normal sleep most of the time. I have a woman in my life who loves me for the struggles i have lived through. Twelve long years, sometimes I wanted to give up and return to the old life but I have friend who pick me up when I get down and out. They help me realize I have a lot more to lose nowadays. they feed me full of positive support.

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Today is a benchmark for me, it has been a long hard struggle to get here. I didn't do it alone. I had love and guidance to help me climb the stairs to success. I believe in myself and have a positive attitude most of the time. I don't have many aggressive thoughts or actions anymore. I am pretty chill and easygoing now that I don't do hard drugs. People genuinely want to chat with me and I can have worthwhile relationships without the drama of the next bag. Pretty freakin' cool.

My Life Stats 2017


I have a stable job.
I have a Wife who loves me.
I have food to eat.
Money to spend.
I weigh 194 lbs. (slimming down).
I can sleep regularly.
I have a solid cell phone.
I can have real relationships with people not just because I want something.
I rarely lie.
I don't steal.
I don't cheat.
I have future that is visible.
And many, many, more to add..


I am going to celebrate today with Rockstar and candy bars! I deserve it. I am gonna party like it's 2005 but without the drugs.

Woohoo! Oh.. Yeah!! #getschwifty in here!

I welcome any comments and insight as to how I can keep this ball rolling.

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It's a remarkable thing, how just when we need something, we get it. I needed to read this today.
I am overjoyed that you overcame the burden of the beast.
It is extraordinaily difficult to do so. I've collected enough silver chips to sink a ship.
And, it's never made a bit of difference.
But, this engagement is. Talking with others. Sharing stories.
I marvel at the way 7 billion of us get cobbled together.
A tapestry of intent and hopefulness.
And the best thing about it is that we're all finally starting to realize, as a collective, our strength.
I'm extremely glad to have made your acquaintance today.
I'm celebrating your milestone!!
(huggy emoji thingy)
I look forward to reading more from you.
Upvoted,resteemed and following now.

You sir, are a KING!
I am happy beyond expression for you!

Hey man that is quite a story. I am so happy for you. It obviously has not been easy but the it is clear the uphill journey was definitely worth it. I believe that coming over adversity makes us better human beings. Such experiences teach us the true meaning of live and what is actually of real value. Finding someone to share our life with, our friends and family. These are the things that matter. We always hear people talk about these things but it is only when you have gone through a journey such as yours that we really actually believe more than being just words.
100% upvote from me.

Great Job. You are a miracle

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