Just the tip

Hey Everyone! My name is Ash, I am from Canada and I have been suffering from severe social anxiety since 2015. I created this blog specifically to tell my story, and to bring awareness about mental health specifically social anxiety and dealing with it before and after as a parent.

I grew up with full of laughter, smiles and had lots of great friends. No matter where my friends and family where I was always there right with them. Either we went to the store, went to park or for a walk, talking on the phone etc... Sounds easy right? Well it was, until 2015 when my life completely changed because I thought I was dying in my sleep.

My family has always been distant from each other, even on holidays we didn't do much as I wish I did. My sister lived only 30 minutes away but only made the effort maybe twice a year to come see us. It was hard, my parents worked a lot to make ends meet and I always craved a close family but closest to family I ever got was a dinner at my uncles and my grandmothers house every couple of years.

I dealt with a lot of my emotions alone being the circumstances of not being as close with family, my parents working a lot but I did open up more as I got older to my mother. Her and I are similar in a lot of ways and I feel like she learnt a lot about herself and truly understood how I was feeling, my dad on the other hand was more of a "mental health doesn't exist", type of person which made me feel a little distant from him in that way. My sister and I are 18 years and lived a completely different life than I did, so she was also not as sympathetic and believed everything that I was feeling was "In my head."

Through out my journey of dealing with mental health, it obviously hasn't been easy but I will continue telling my story through the darkest and greatest times. But just know this is only the tip of the story.