Addiction

Images stab through my iris
I'm caught up in a genjutsu before I blink my eyelids
The yearning I thought were dead come alive like a zombie
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Eating through my mind
Past all my defence line
Now I'm a goner before I filter what my eyes feeds
I try to fit but right now it's all my body needs

That syrup or booze or pill that I have to gobble
That spliff or syringe or organ that I have to squeeze
Lord please
save me

I'm caught up in a dilemma
I swore I wouldn't fall for this again but I've lost my stamina
The will to evade is weak

The slope to oblige is steep
As I lose the fight one more time is my conclusion
I'm already minutes into the ecstasy of my affliction

And like a curve
the joy declines
My thoughts rewind
Regret is mine

Myself helpless I find
The quagmire of the decision
that led me back to the prison of my addiction.
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