Simple things Sweetheart...
“Within you, there is a stillness and a sanctuary to which you can retreat at any time and be yourself.” - Hermann Hesse
I don’t want to be one of those people that takes life for granted - I mean, I know we are all “that person” at times, but the point is… I don’t want to be - and yet it so often feels like the days are just slipping between my fingers and I am not giving them enough of “me” in terms of appreciating the moments, because I am so busy being hung up on safeguarding myself, the future of my son and worrying entirely too much about “things” which very definitely deserve a whole lot less of my energy, attention and emotion.
This cannot possibly be what life is about. This cannot be it’s intention... I mean, I know it isn’t - but I would be a liar if I said I didn’t question that fact sometimes. Today I needed to take myself to a place of ‘not wondering or questioning’. “Simple things sweetheart” my mom always said to me, when she would see me in a state of turmoil. “Shift your focus to the simple things” So, that was what I decided to do today.
My home and its garden are the only two places I truly feel at peace anymore if I am honest. Everything else requires effort and restraint in one form or another and more often than not, being out in the world just makes me feel even less about myself than I already do, and that is a battle I am so tired of fighting, so I’d simply rather wave my little white flag of gypsophila… from my garden.
If I do not “offer” myself to the world, then the world cannot hurt me any more than it already has. Sanctuary of self, I suppose - and to be frank, there is no loneliness in it - only peace.
Seek solace in the depths of your being, where stillness resides. Amidst the chaos of the world, find moments of tranquillity within yourself. Embrace the sanctuary of stillness as a haven of self-reflection, rejuvenation, and profound connection with your true essence. In stillness, you discover the profound wisdom that arises when the mind is quiet and the soul is allowed to speak. - Hermann Hesse
Peace, quiet and being alone - independence. A minor, - little major - I need to refamiliarise myself with - and with haste! How quickly we lose ourselves. Some never come back. How sad.
I have lost count of the times I have lost myself. Well, I was always so certain that I had “found myself”, but lately - I am just not sure. I find myself cowering, succumbing and acting out behaviour and patterns that I swore to myself I had left behind so many years ago. Perhaps I am just a statistic in the “how sad” category I just unconsciously created. Probably.
Or perhaps, I just breathe easier when “you” are not around to “choke me” and I don’t have to constantly remind myself of how inherently selfish humankind is. A contemplation worth spiralling into.
I am slowly discovering that just because certain people around me refuse to see magic in detail and emotional expression and connection, does not mean they are wrong and definitely does not mean they do not matter. It just means that “they” are not my people. Simple. Acceptance of that - less simple. Less simple, but not impossible.
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Until next time...
Much Love from Country Bumpkinland, South Africa xxx
Jaynielea
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One part of the magic of life is that we always can reinvent ourselves. I guess it doesn't matter too much how others see us, but all the more how we see ourselves. Let us find our own powerspot where we can connect to life and universe!
I love this @maxinpower :) and thank you!!! And it is such a good piece of advice. I need to remind myself of this often, which I suppose is indicative of something else entirely... which also needs to be addressed.
Such awesome post.. its just like reminder to our self..
Thanks for sharing..
And thank you for taking the time to read it @sailawana and for sharing your thoughts too!
With all my pleasure..
xxx