Day 748 (Daily Post)

Day 748. I am glad that I have managed to stay warm through this latest cold snap. I know that for folks that have not endured prolonged life circumstances where they are miserably cold for extended periods of time to truly grasp how wonderful both being (and staying) warm is but having 'warmth' is for me more important than just about anything. Besides a lack of warmth being uncomfortable it also is mentally debilitating/harmful and of course it can also be physically harmful to the point of death. I can't remember a time during my adult life that I took 'warmth' for granted but I can painfully remember many times the lack of it and it's effects upon me. Perhaps it even scarred/changed me in some ways that I do not quite have the ability to articulate nor do I have the desire to. I do not make any secret nor bear any shame in living so far beneath the poverty line that the 'line' itself sounds like some fabled promise land because hey this is the path my life choices have lead me down and I am absolutely okay with that and although there are plenty of hardships I do my best not to overly complain, wrongly blame 'the world' or others and generally just try to weather the hardships the best that I can because doing anything else would be pretty damn counterproductive to say the least. I was also never good at being a pariah or getting too enamored with the escapism of self pity but I did let it all get me depressed for quite a long time. Now lacking that depression I definitely occasionally feel like I have lost something vital in my life but upon closer inspection I realize that I just finally got fed up enough that I chose to wholly reject something that just did not serve me in any meaningful way. My life by no means is wonderful nor even all that remarkable but I at least have a 'satisfied mind' and I would not trade that for anything in the world. To those who have helped along the way...I see you very well...thank you...and may you have long days and pleasant nights.

Note: As some of you know I have been making these 'Daily Post' on another platform ever since I began my stay at this old farm seven hundred and forty-eight days ago. Ever since I began using Steemit I have considered posting them here as well but have been hesitant to do so because the content of them varies and thus it is difficult to tag as 'one thing or another' and they do not always directly relate to homesteading, off grid living or whatever. I also type them out in a notepad App on an Android phone and post them as a 'wall of text' instead of breaking them into paragraphs because the platform that I copy and paste them to formats them into a 'wall of text' even if I break them into paragraphs. I am not going to correctly format them and have grown to enjoy their rambling nature. So this is sort of a test and I appreciate any feedback that folks may have.