Explain I Love You For God

I stepped my legs to walk "Bruukkkk", I suddenly fell because slipping the krikil on the edge of the school field. Without me realizing there was a figure standing in front of me. I woke slowly while cleaning my dirty little hands. Who is that figure standing in front of me? I tried to look at her. However, it seems a tall, dark-skinned man and his face is quite handsome.

"Be careful," he said, removing a smile from two lips.
I was startled and dazed looking at his face deeply. My lips are stiff to talk, my breath is so heavy, my heart pauses.
"Are you all right?" He asked, waking my seagrass.
"T.t.ti.dak kkok", I replied suddenly lata.

I continued my steps. Remembering the figure of the man, who was he ?. I imagine always the memory of his sweet smile so charming. Eemm ... is it possible I like him ?.

A bright morning, I opened my bedroom window. The night had changed in the morning, the evening into a bright morning with the arrival of the sun. The chirp of my morning animator. Briefly approached my handphone opened facebook account then rushed to take a shower to go to school.

Seen at 6:15 am in my hand. After eating breakfast, I immediately went to school. Up in school, as usual I entered the school gate to the classroom. But before I had to go through the laboratory, the hall room and do not forget to take the class key in the teacher's room. As I was about to enter the teachers' room, I accidentally met the man yesterday. Looks like he just came out of the teacher's room.
Seen at 6:15 am in my hand. After eating breakfast, I immediately went to school. Up in school, as usual I entered the school gate to the classroom. But before I had to go through the laboratory, the hall room and do not forget to take the class key in the teacher's room. As I was about to enter the teachers' room, I accidentally met the man yesterday. Looks like he just came out of the teacher's room.

"Hey, .." I called to stop.
"Assalamualaikum", he said to me.
"Waalaikum salam", I replied.
"What is it?", He asked me with a smile.

"Recommend me Finasya Tara", I say, holding out my response.
"I am Rifan Tarsyarif Muttaqin", he replied as he pressed his hands together across his chest.
"Greetings know," I said, pulling my hand out.
"Formerly finasya yes, I rush to the class", he said leave me.

My heart was pounding as he thought of the man, it was great to be able to meet him. The first moment I felt. Hmm .. so want to know who the figure of that man ?.

School break
I came out of the classroom door and then I went to the cooperative. I did not expect, there was Rifan Kak also there.

"Kak Rifan" I called slowly.
Like here, he turned to greet me with greetings, "Assalamu'alaikum".
"Waalaikum greetings" I replied always.

"What's the call me?" He asked softly.
"Emm .. not really. Can you ask for her phone number? "I asked her.
"OK," he replied as he pulled out a bullet.
"Note on this paper aja Kak", my suggestion to him.

Kak Rifan also wrote his phone number on paper.
"Thank you Kak", I said with a happy heart.
"Together", he replied shortly.

Exactly the night of the week, the beautiful night I saw the moon and stars, soon I stood behind my bedroom window, I took the phone and sent 1 message to Kak Rifan which contains greetings and "by Finasya". I looked at my handphone and 1 message from Kak Rifan came in and I read. We are also familiar in communication. Suddenly the sound of the call to prayer also reverberated.
"It's been Finasya yes, I want to pray isya", he said end the conversation.

Time is so fast, day after day, morning to morning, night to night, and finally a month has passed. Now I'm getting closer to Kak Rifan even like my brother's brother, not only that since I met him. Now I'm starting to turn into diligent worship and have been wearing Muslim clothes every day and wherever I go. All this I do on the basis of my sense of belonging with Kak Rifan. He's the one who made me change.

In the morning I sat leaning against my yard. I pondered my heart and wrote something in the diary.
"Oh God ... Finasya like Kak Rifan, Finasya dear Kak Rifan, Finasya not want to leave Kak Rifan. Finasya aware .. if Finasya changed because of him and what Finasya do wrong in your eyes, maybe God does not accept my worship because all this purpose and purpose only to be able to know the figure of Kak Rifan and Kak Rifan can like same Finasya.
O God ... Finasya will continue to be Finasya intention to be a woman solehah. Now and from this moment, Finasya will change for God. Finasya promises to do Your commands and stay away from Your prohibitions. And Finasya will not like it again Kak Rifan Finasya will focus on this disease first. Finasya sure, if Finasya will be strong against the disease that attacks the body finasya, deadly malignant disease. Finasya sincerity with the coming of this disease because of God. "

One week passed, now my sense of kiss on Kak Rifan more lost. I stepped my leg and I fell. I tried to stand but could not and I could not move my legs. I thought if I was paralyzed, I was crying and scared. What will happen to me after this? without even realizing I fainted.

I opened my eyes slowly, I saw many people around me, maybe now I'm in the hospital. Suddenly "Kreekk ..." the sound of an open door brings someone. And that someone is Kak Rifan.
"Assalamu'alaikum", greet all the people in this room.
"Waalaikum greetings", I replied and the other.
because of the presence of Kak Rifan, everyone in this room came out except Kak Rifan.

"Finasya, are you sick? Why not say sister? ", He asked anxiously.
"No, it's just a common pain," I said, trying to hide my illness.
"Sister you know lie, but before sister apologize. Last sister to your house and sister clay diary in your yard, brother accidentally opened his last sheet and sister read. Sister knows everything. Sister actually love you too, but maybe it's too late now, because you do not like your brother anymore. "Said he explained.
"I'm sorry yaa kak? Brother do not be sad, when something will happen to me, brother must be strong, and when I go to be called God, brother must be sincere. "I say weak....

Precisely Friday, a month after the incident. Finasya breathed her last in the hospital. All his family was crying and one of them called Kak Rifan to preach this incident. Kak Rifan's heart was struck after hearing the news. She cried and went straight to the hospital. Everyone who knew Finasya spilled her tears after hearing that Finasya had gone away for good.