I'm warning you, brain... Spring fever
Hi, guys!
Probably some of you who know my blog for a long time noticed that I almost don't post art for already about three weeks. Today I decided to explain why this happens.
As I said here for many times I suffer from bipolar disorder, and despite the meds sometimes illness dictates it's own rules to my life. As I see now especially in spring and autumn. But if autumn usually is more common with manic episodes for me, spring is more cut out for depression in my case. I don't say that I'm in the episode at the moment, but I'm too close to it to feel good. Plus after I started my medication about half year ago my fear to return to the state where I was is really hard, cause I was brought to the doctor when I was already close to suicide.
So, at the moment I'm trying to do everything I can to help myself stay in a golden middle of the mood. It includes sports, tidying up (yes, now my hubby turned his workplace upside down and I help him to clean the mess), walking with my dog, reading and avoiding anything that can trigger me. Does drawing do it? Of course not. But for some reason I just can't draw at the moment.
Last week I had nightmares every night. They're hard, and while dreaming I believe that it's actually happening. Usually I can forget about them during breakfast, but today all my day was spoiled with horrible dreams. As you can understand they had attitude to my actual fears, otherwise they wouldn't affect me so much.
So now, at 1 a.m. I'm still trying to relax and forget them before I go to bed again.
Where am I leading - I will get back to drawing, of course. It's my work after all. But first I have to fix myself.
I wish you all the best and will be happy if you'll support me with vote:)
Love, Inber
I wish you relief soon! It seems like you're doing everything you can to take care of yourself. Your drawings will be back soon :-)
Excuse my ignorance but what kind of things can trigger episodes? I know naff all about bipolar other than Stephen Fry also suffers from it.
Triggers usually are personal.
There can be some events in life that provoked development of illness, for example, and then witnessing something similar becomes a trigger. Actually it's hard to explain in English for me. Well, I'll make the most simple example. A girl suffers from anorexia and she is in remission. Suddenly someone says "hey, looks like you've gained some weight"! And that's it, from the next day she eats nothing.
Great simple explanation :)
I wish you too stay better soon, dear Inber. The spring is just around the corner and the drawings can wait, now the important is you stay better. Hugs from me.
Thank you, my dear! Hugs from me too! <3