Heartache.

I wake up
I feel good
Then I go with my day
I rush things
Finish fast
And get my time away
So I think
And I feel
And I feel so wrong
Cause Im not being who I want to become
Then reality crumbles
Tears start to fall
I realize my struggles
And I try to keep shut
So I keep it as a secret
One that does no good
I go on with my day
Like anyone would

Being someone I don’t wanna be
Feeling a heartache because of me
Because of the ambitions that were never supposed to be

With my hand on my chest
My heartbeat on reverse
I can’t feel my life making any more sense
So I get me a room
And I cry till noon
Until I decide the cycle will repeat soon

Ah ah, the envy of those above me makes a void in my chest
And I try to fill it with leaving but it’s a thing that I can’t avoid
And I try and I try and I try again but at last I won’t succeed
I might as well become someone’s shadow and disappear

Ah ah, the pain that won’t leave my chest alone
The guilt of not being someone and the sadness of being alone
And I try and I try and I try again but I realize life won’t go
So I might as well go sleep and just tell myself to say no