Someone may have been mean to you, or not given you attribution for your idea, or implemented an idea similar to your own in a way which is very different from something you envisioned but none of that justifies the way you conduct yourself. Having "no filter" is not a virtue. Creating a train wreck of words and expecting the reader to sift through it and somehow piece back together your intended meaning in some way that reflects kindly on you is an awful way to represent your ideas, irrespective of their obective value. Constantly shouting about how you are the victim doesn't legitimize anything you are saying or the way you are saying it. I didn't hurt you and I don't deserve the beratement that is your writing. Despite what you may think or have been told, the manner in which you convey yourself is just as important as what you have to say. Honesty and candor are valuable, temper tantrums mixed with braggartry are not. Lastly, I sincerely doubt the kind of stress you are displaying is in any way conducive to your bodily healing, regardless of how I or anyone else take your words.