defy gravity

i feel that i'm no longer as lost as i used to be.
no longer drifting in the air, searching for a refuge.
urging to belong somewhere. anywhere.
i'm still searching, but with a much more secure and independent soul.
i realize that human connections are essential in life,
more so than material comforts. exponentially more essential.
sometimes, you get disappointed by people's actions.
sometimes, you fall apart.
sometimes, you just wish you could fade away and you wonder if anyone will even notice you're missing.
i was going through emails, messages and remnants of the past tonight.
and one thought kept repeating itself on my mind:
wow, i've come along that far.
i miss a lot of wonderful people who used to play such important roles in my life.
and i realized that they still play very important roles in my life.
they are my building blocks. all the experiences. all the high times and low times.
they contributed so much to my human experience.
challenging me to grow, into a much better person,
a much more interesting person, a much richer person.
not in the monetary sense but of the knowledge, wisdom, authenticity and depth sense.
and i just wanted to thank you all.
such sincere and intriguing characters.

and right now, i have an intense urge to welcome more characters in my life.
open myself up. stop the little particles of skeptics and cynics from building a wall around me.
find meaning in everything that i do even if they appear meaningless.
the superficial pleasures, i crave less and less.
the spiritual journey is what i would like to embark on.
the giving, the searching, the loving - let me get on board.
read, educate the mind, play, nurture the soul,
love, spread it around and share your toys.
find alone time for yourself.
and get in touch with your inner world.
defy gravity. dump that book of rules.
listen to the orchestra of life.
so beautiful and melodic.
so chaotic at times, yet so harmonious on other occasions.
learn to forgive. anger is only a momentary loss of control.
regain your equilibrium. and never attempt to hurt anything.
because you'll end up hurting yourself.
karma has a way of finding you.
and accept your mistakes, confront your fears.
acknowledge your wrongdoings and grow from them.
but also know when you should quit, and allow some breathing space.
there is nothing worse than suffocation of the soul.
travel. if there's one thing i would never say no to, it is to travel.
your horizons will be widened, your perspective will have more dimensions.
let things inspire you. inspire others.
i'm seeking other idealists, who believe that the heart of life is good.
and hopefully, we'll be able to spread this idealism to all corners of the world.
create laughter. cook. drink. eat. and put your hands together for something good.
appreciate the tiniest act of kindness, and never ceased to give acts of kindness to others.
indulge in your little pleasures. make love. and smile at strangers.
go to the beach. go to the mountains. connect with nature.

and when you get that tickling feeling, trust it.
use your intuition. sometimes they triumph over logic.
but apply logic when the circumstances require it.
when life throws you off guard, pause for a moment.
think of the big picture. and don't step on others' toes so that you can feel better.
always lend a shoulder for others to cry on.
provide kleenex and chicken soup, but most of all, listen.
don't judge. and be passionate about things that you love.
but don't lie to yourself. if you feel that something isn't right,
or isn't true, then get yourself out of it.
being dishonest is living without integrity.
without values and principles.
without a guide.
without love.