The Other Team
As i bored and still figuring out how to fix the local server for me and my friends plaxel Plan.
i began searching something to watch while doing coding. So i found Steven Spielberg documentary. As i am typing right now, i’m updating my blog because i had something in my mind. I love watching movies, i watch every genre but i more focused on sci-fi genre.
I believe that i can also make a short stories as long you have enough focus, enthusiasm and i got high commitments over this thing because this is my dream working among your friends build something out of nothing. So i began to to write and ready something to shoot, but at the middle of the process i found new team and i think it was a wise choice to make a team because everyone have their own different skill set that can contribute or mix idea to make something that authenticity in Sabah independent film making. But there is one big problem where my old teammate dint coop or give a full commitment. So i shifted everything to business rather than piling up my anger because im not a kid anymore. If people don’t want to work with you, just leave them. ignore. move on before you are to late.
The proposal was great, the agreement was great but we dint have the demo reel, without it i cant convince my investor. That’s why i abandon this childish act and move on. I felt sorry for Submotion and his brothers, they are good in arts but i din’t have any chances to work with them. But, if they still on for it, i will join the board and fight for a new dream.
For now, i need to focus what need to be focused. I din’t care that person is so successful or this person successful, i think my ego isn’t that high to get jelous. i get rid of my ego long time ago because ego ruins everything even your self. Everyone have their own sustenance that Allah gave to them so there is no reason to get jelous or get mad at.
This year i found my strength to let it go some of few people who doesnt really show their commitment and move on to another sub project that other people show more commitment in that specific project. I don’t have time to wait for other people who doesn’t help and fight for what we stood for, if you ask someone to work with you like asking someone to acting in your short videos, you need to help them to help you.
I just disappointed that bold move my friend ask his friend to act in his short stories but he din’t help the person who willingly to join the project because his friends live so far to kk. His friend already said that he can provide gas money. Me and Fizan had this chemistry for so long if he have some trouble, he picked me up but i still pay the gas money. Or if i had a problem we still help one another, that what friends do. helping each other. I felt sorry for “The Kid” ( as he called him self ). anyway i dint want this like a rage post or a hatred post. To be honest i dint felt like i want a revenge or something, i just felt sorry for those who dint see alot of people trying to help him, but he din’t see the big picture whats going on to his surrounding and to his self. i really felt sorry for him but its up to him either to fix his self or not.
In my heart i still want to make a film, i din’t care either is it for the cinema or just for youtube or its just for me i just wanted to felt the freedom of show my expression of my creativity that i felt. So in that point, i need a sub project that it can support my life and my economy, in doing that, me and a new sub crew are preparing that something i also love to do. If the plan works, i probably buying some equipment, because the proposal for the studio isn’t a green light after theres no demoreel.
welp coding time. thats all for now. fix what you can fix otherwise people will start running away from you again and again and again. learn compassion and learn to give. lower your ego. learn when to show or use the ego in specific moment. Helping other make your life get easier
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