WHAT AM I CALLED TO DO? NURSING OR A SOFTWARE DEVELOPER

hermannsol (63)in #life • 8 years ago

Hello fellow steemians here on the platform.
I will like to share a part o my life and what is happening to me at the moment and please feel free to tell me what you think and your opinions.

Growing up and going through my secondary education, i have always dreamed of pursuing a study in computer sciences and related fields. I loved computer studies and anything computer related. I concluded secondary school as the best computer student in my school with the best grades in the subject. My teacher could place his bet on me to further my studies in a computer related field. That i also wanted to do but i was advised by my sponsors and family to pursue further studies in nursing. All i ever wanted in life is to make my family happy and proud and with this i agreed to go into the nursing field because i believed it was all for a brighter future for me.

I was enrolled in a higher institute and i started pursuing a degree in nursing. At first, i was not that really into it but still i excelled and was the best of my class. It's been three years now and to my surprise i get to love and cherish the profession more and more. I have been on a good number of internships for about 6 months and volunteer work for about 4months. I have worked in towns and the suburbs of rural communities and every time after such work, seeing what i do and the smile i put on the faces of all my patients and how they appreciate and encourage me to continue to work the way i do, i fall in love with my work more and more as the days progress. I know i have always had it in me to help people, support them and put smiles on faces but nursing was never the idea or route i had in mind.

I shocked my teachers of secondary school who were all confident that i will make it big as a computer engineer or something like that. Even i was not comfortable with my decision and always had in mind to one day reconnect with my aspirations in the computer field but right now, i must say i don't know what i want anymore. I look at myself practicing nursing and from the smiles and joy it brings me i can say i love it but on the other hand is a dream i used to have and still hope to pursue it but something has changed.

What are my really called to do?
This is the big question that is ringing in my head most at times and it really disturbs me.
Are my pursuing the wrong one or is this what i am called to do and i don't even realise it?

I have even thought of pursuing both but i don't really think i can conveniently pull through given they both need a lot of time and devotion. Even if i pulled it through, i think of a day that will come when i have to choose from the two and i will not be able to run from it. That is why it is so important that i know which one i am really called to pursue.

I truly feel so good and fulfilled when i see my patients leaving the hospital well and healthy and it gives me so much joy but then there are also days i think about developing my own software.