gay

i told my parents years ago that I liked girls. My mom didnt take it well and we stopped talking for 5 years since she lives in Mexico now. We just recently started talking again since I was locked up for a year. I reached out to her and we have been ok since then. Shes been asking if I have a boyfriend? All i say is no but I'm afraid to "remind" her that I am gay because I do not want to start an argument. Im wondering if shes pretending she forgot I'm gay or if shes trying to push me into getting a boyfriend hoping Im not "gay anymore". My dad didnt take it well too but he just pretends I never said anything. But the last time I had a girlfriend and would bring her around my dad was really rude to her.... idk how to bring it up again and makes me upset because it is not fair to me. My brother is gay too but everyone could see it right away, no one "expected" me to be gay. they didnt make a big deal about my brother but they think that im just going through a faze and trying to be like my brother. but i have known im gay since i was young...kind of hurts to see that they didnt know me so well after all. i recently started to talking to a girl but i have no idea how i would even tell them, im scared that they will be really mean to her... it sucks. i feel like i have to choose between being myself or keeping them happy. but what about my happiness? just wanted to rant. :(