Need a Mood Booster! Do You Have one? Better Help Me!

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Good morning!

I need a mood booster right now.
Really.

Recently, I simply joined a test for an exchange program. I do truly have huge hope to pass the program this year as I have already applied for it for 3 times.

As I woke up this morning, I used to do my routine activity to check my inbox email.
I don't think I will read this sort of message at the beginning of today, since it's too soon to get.

I didn't predict that the committees just simply checked and assessed the application in just a single day. That was an extraordinary group cooperation I guess. Applause!

"Dear applicant!
We regret to inform you that you bla bla bla bla...." you know the rest of this email if you are a scholarship hunter.

It is disgusting to keep perusing this sort of electronic letter. It sucks.

I have arranged numerous things for this occasion. Learning harder than before, perusing a great deal of book, practicing more and praying most.

Be that as it may, I guess someone else was learning hardest, reading thousands of books and literatures, rehearsing every single day and praying all the time.

She/he deserved it. They deserved it. I don't blame the candidate who are selected. But I blame myself.

I believe that my lucky day is not just coming yet and no idea when it will come. But why this feeling is so blowing up my mind?

I rarely feel this sort of condition actually, coz I've always see everything in a positive outlook. If this is not for me, it must be not the best one. That's what I've always think about a failure.

But now, I just can't holding on why I feel the sadness and a little bit disappointed in the deepest of my heart, a feeling of fade up for me myself. A feeling of being left behind too far from others.

This is the last​ chance for me to be able to take part in this program in light of the age necessity as well as having another preference for the next year.

Having no other opportunities and an excessive amount of expectations, these might be the very logical reason why I'm feeling along these lines.

Is it normal?
I hope so.

However, as I read this below motivation article, my heart bit typical right at this point.

Truly Mood Booster Article

It was my mistake trusting massively on my capacity and didn't realize it is limited.

It was my mistake believing excessively on my ego and ability but I did'nt realize someone else might have more than mine.

It was my mistake that I forget I have my own time zone. My own success.
It must be in different places, different chance and different condition.

What we need to do is simply put forth a strong effort and acknowledged.

Give your best efforts and accept every God's decision in our life.

Let's educate our beautiful mind.

Thanks for reading this chit chat feeling.

Anyway I would like to thanks to
My friend @frostyamber!
Your beautiful mind on "daily thought" routine posts motivate me in facing this condition.

And big thanks to these accounts which is provided education content.
@steemiteducation @originalworks @miso @piyushkansal and @adsactly