When I first got sick with recurrent, severe depression

I'd rather stand with God & be judged by the world
When I first got sick with recurrent, severe Depression my mom was more worried about my sister than me. My sister was going through a hard time. I was going through a very hard time myself. My mom at one time was screaming at me & we got into a huge fight. Both of us screaming, She pulled my hair & I pulled her hair next thing I knew both of us was on the floor pulling each other's hair. My mom loved pulling my hair when we got into a fight! My family didn't help with things actually because of my family I got more sick with my depression. I was going downhill fast! Only by the grace of God I made it through that dark time in my life! It wasn't time for me to die, God had other plans for me. A few years ago my PTSD finally got recognized. My PTSD stems from a very young age & many traumatic events after that throughout my life. some if not most because of G.C & N.C. My brothers & sister a few traumatic events in my life. After age 23 yrs old more traumatic events happened in my life. Only by the grace of God I have endured