A New Chapter
Now we are back. Back from the woods. Back from the mountain. Back from the small town.
We have arrived in the big city. the flatlands, the urban surroundings, the crazy.
For a while during the summer I thought of this as the pause button. I thought of it as the boring part. The summer is the excitement, the productive part of the year, and the winter is the lull, the bleak months of bread lines and struggle. I viewed the return to here as the inconvenient return to reality and drudgery.
That's not how life works.
There is no pause, there are no breaks and inconvenient stops. Sure, there are seasons in life. There are periods of calm, times of chaos, bleak days and happy days. But life ticks on.
This is not a season for sitting on my haunches and being miserable. Instead, I need to see this as an opportunity to grow. I have the time and the energy to invest in so much right now, it would be foolish to let my anxiety get the best of me.
It hasn't been three days back and we already have met a few setbacks. I need a functioning truck to make money. She needs a vehicle to get to Virginia to make money. One's got shot brakes and the other is still full of unpacked junk. We have a lot of emotional baggage about this house. There aren't a lot of good memories here, and walking in the door to find it still cluttered with all the trinkets and accumulated crap from all the years is a drain on the mind and spirit.
Not to mention the adjustment to the time zone difference. Two hours makes a surprising difference.
In spite of that I have been able to accomplish many things so far. I have unpacked boxes, bundled up laundry, cleaned up the mile thick layer of dust on several surfaces, mowed the front yard and start tackling the back, cleaned the fridge of six months of scary, unburied the kitchen counters, diagnosed a brake issue, and hung out with friends.
Tackling this is no easy feat.
Taking credit and feeling proud of my accomplishments is not something which comes naturally for me. I tend to downplay or just outright deny my successes. This is something I am working on. There is nothing inherently wrong with looking at something I have completed and saying "I did this well." It is not arrogance to take pride in legitimate accomplishments, only in made up ones.
This is a new chapter in our adventure. I intend to make it a good one.
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