Long time, no see

It's been almost a year since I've posted anything.

And what a year it's been...

I've really missed being here.  I've missed the creativity... the interaction... the community.

But I've been focused on... well, really on my health.  Physical, mental, emotional.   

Let me back up and try to summarize this last year quickly for you!  I had been a stay-at-home /homeschool mom for years.  YEARS, I say.   and then I had the opportunity to work from home for a company.  I think there is a teeny tiny part, locked away inside stay-at-home moms.... and probably especially those who also homeschool - that makes us feel like we have to prove that we're valuable.  not just to our families - but to society.

And of course - we KNOW this is bogus. Ridiculous, even!   Pfffft!  deep down we know that we have made sacrifices - and that those sacrifices are well worth it!!! We don't need validation from the likes of "them"! 

but (shhhhhh!) Come with me deeeeeeeper down, in the quiet, hidden corners of the mind.  Behind the bookshelf.... see it there?  that little secret?

               

  *opens and reads*  "we need to prove our worth."

I spent a lot of time working, working, and working.  Fixing many problems of a lot of people, and realizing that I was neglecting myself.                                       

I felt like a clock that was needing a solid wind up.  But I didn't have the energy to even lift a finger, let alone wind my own clock.

After realizing that it wasn't magically fixing itself... I finally went to the doctor.  My doctor was alarmed at my bloodwork.  Apparently, I WAS winding down.  I didn't even have the building blocks to make necessary (and kinda important) cells.  Turns out blood is REALLY essential for - you know - life. 

Here was a snippet of our conversation:

Doctor:  blah blah blah medical jargon and extensive education whizzing past my head.  (Normally, I would be tracking, but I couldn't bother to focus my mind long enough to inhale properly, let alone discern "smart words")

Me:  mm hmm.  uh huh.  (long yaaaaaaaaaawn)   so can you tell me that again- but dumber?

Doctor:  Sure.  see this number?  We never want to see it below 35.

Me:  mmmkay.   got it. 35. So what's mine?  Like a 34?

Doctor:  3

Me:   We should probably fix that.

And we did.   (I think.)  but it took time, and some guesswork.  I'm feeling a lot better now, and I'm actually APPLYING a lot of the amazing health and nutrition stuff that I've been learning the past 7 years.  so - win/win! 

And now I'm back to Steemit :)  Ready to make my little mark on the Steemiverse!  

                         

p.s.  thanks @creatr for never giving up on me ;)