I Love Y'all it Hurts So Much. In a Good Way.

3 years now what?

Today is my third anniversary. It's been three years since I've started blogging on Ssss... I dare not say (because I don't wanna get trolled anymore) so let's just say that Ssss that had been forked into Hive. Did I say it right this time? Not migrated, moved, or anything but Forked. Oh well whatever, it's basically the same for me because you, yes you, you, you and you, my beloved followers are still here! I used the term affectionately because you are all dear to me. Because my existence in this crypto space that we all love would not matter without you all guys.

So thank you. Thank you for staying with me. Thank you for putting up with all my messiness and skewed outlook on life. And I'm afraid I'm gonna infect the whole world again with my broken mind. It could be worse, think COVID-19.

Who would have thought we would all be blogging like crazy to this day? It took a while before I got here. My first post on this community didn't go well so I thought I'd stick around on the other side. Until I couldn't literally understand my feed anymore. So many things have happened over there that I don't care anymore. Quite sad actually but maybe it's all for the best. The most important thing is that we are still here amidst the craziness of our times.

This was me last month one bright afternoon, caught working at work. Because sometimes I didn't. My hair gradually returning to its original color. Black, as black as my heart.

It feels like 2017 all over again, dejavu it is. I'm on a blogging spree, writing passionately just like 3 years ago. Just like 3 years ago when I came back to where I originated from and forced myself into isolation to do my thing. When writing content takes 3-4 hours of my life again. But it feels good to be doing something else other than overthinking at 4 AM.

My reintegration into this community might have come as a surprise, or not. Let this be my official come back post. If you look closely, I disappear from time to time. I wear my invisible cloak and I quite like it. But yes, forgive me for being like that. But I promise, no I don't want to promise, but I will try my best not to dessert you if I start getting busy in real life again.

And I'm sorry.

Yes, I'm saying it this time. To those I had offended in my past diabolic self. I hope you are all still out there upvoting and supporting other writers in this community. I do miss you guys. Even the trolls.

I know I should come with a warning label. I must admit that I am too sensitive of a person. Scarred by the world. I got hurt and I hurt. And sometimes too much. But every moment in my waking life is a chance to feel better and be better.

I have other projects in my mind (I'm gonna get to that) I want to start in real life. I got to live here. I got to try. So I'm going to write more and more and be purposeful and meaningful. And happier. Filled with passion and love. Every day, I'll find little things to be grateful for and share it with you.

So many things in my head right now. Good things, formidable things. So many things to say. About my life, about my world. And I am quite trembling because I might say things the wrong way.

But know that I love y'all it hurts so much. In a good way.