It Is Hard To Get Hungry In The Middle Of The Night When You Are Disabled Like Me

This early morning I was just entertaining myself, watching some videos, steeming, and chatting with some friends trying to wear down the effects of the energy drink that I had for my dialysis so that I could sleep when I remembered what I ate for me dialysis.

Prior to that I had a pepperoni sandwich which I liked eating because it has some tomato sauce and it feels like I was eating a pizza. I have thought of having some food just before my session because it seemed to help me stabilize my blood pressure.

I also eat a lot and I will not stop until I get my fill and really satiated. My eyes roll with every bite considering it is a bit hard to chew but it is okay because when you are really hungry you could eat even rice without a viand. Then after eating I would have my energy drink which I know isn't that healthy but it has some caffeine that I make use for my blood pressure, so it won't crash.

Actually my blood pressure still crashes but not that so low that the nurses are panicking already. But lately I am just eating prior and it helps a bit so that is just what I am doing so that the blood cleaning session will not get interrupted.

Anyway I did remembered what I eat and since my last meal was 3:00 PM I am now hungry that I regret not telling my mother to order me that food again that I had for my dialysis so that I could have it again when we get back home.

Now I will be very inconsiderate if I would wake up my mother since I know that she is tired taking errands for me. I just pray that I would not get the "shakes" associated with low blood sugar or else I would have to text my mother to at least give me some bread to eat.

Well it sucks because I had done it before, I braved myself getting something to eat but I regretted it half way to the kitchen. There is no turning back so I got a plate, take me some rice and viand and upon returning to my room was like going up to mount Everest with all that panting happening and the pain in my feet, knees, and back.

That gave me a lesson not to do it again lest i will trip myself over and maybe hurt myself if not break a bone or two. That is why I am ever so careful when I walk being so slow and taking my time if I ever walk since only the walk that I am doing is shuffling my feet when I go from the door of the bathroom and inside our small bathroom.

That is why my parents are so essential in my life and I pray to God to give them sound body and mind because I cannot think what will happen if they are no longer in my aide, it would be a terrible thing for me even to think about it.