I'm About A Month Away From My 18th Anniversary As Dialysis Patient And It Was A Hell Of A Life🍾🥂🎉🙏🏻🤲🏻

I Am Thankful To God

I might hit my 18th Anniversary as a dialysis patient on the 1st of December and I really do not know if I would be happy or sad. I am happy that at least I had seen a lot of days after being a dialysis patient, it wasn't really a death sentence after all but I am not saying that it was not a good experience. Just imagine being in a constant discomfort with just a little window of comfort in your life that only comes after dialysis had cleansed your body and taken excess water which in my case is not always enough and always wanting.

I remember those awful days, weeks, and years that I am always having the urea breath not knowing that I was not getting a quality treatment for myself. It was just recently after I learned that my current dialysis center has that better and efficient type of dialyzer that cleans my body better so now I am not getting that nausea and urea breath as much as before.

I Live A Life Needing A Constant Care

Being a dialysis patient is very hard, you are at risk of a lot of health complications like heart disease and in my case bone complications. I am in constant pain especially if I am sitting and walking. Breathlessness is also plaguing me because of extra fluids in my body that could not get taken off that easily because I always get that low blood pressure episodes that affects my dialysis and it does suck when it happens.

Of course the medicines, I am spending a lot of money for it and it drains my funds fast. I do not know what to do next if my funds are all expended including my steem so I am praying that it won't happen because nobody in my relatives and church would really help me out considering the expenses that I have to deal with.

I Am Fearing Bankruptcy Because Of My Large Expenses

I have also seen a lot of people had come and go in my life, nurses and more particularly my co-patients which I was outliving. Sometimes a patient would only live for a few months and then a news would come that they just passed. So even though we are not friends it always affects me somewhat.

It is just a rough ride to this lifetime and unfortunately I was in that path long enough that it already had changed my appearance. But my appearance was the least of my worries because I have to contend with pain and the worsening pain, the risk of my face getting larger, my eating disability, my speech disability, my immobility, not to mention my social life are all had been affected.

Walking Along This Kind Of Tumultuous Life Is No Fun At All Even The Destination That I Am facing

So that is what my life had been, lots of sleepless nights, lots of unable to eat and or enjoy food, lots of days in my life that I wasn't able to enjoy. So now I am not living much but in just a survival mode and I am angry that my body is not giving out, it is a real tough nut to crack. But I am at least making some others get inspired about their own lives, to be thankful because theirs is in no way like mine and that they should be grateful and not bothering about simple problems because there is a guy out there that is living in insurmountable medical problems that is very uncertain if he could ever make it through.

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