I Just Want To Sleep All Day

It is drizzling with rain outside and my mini electric fan is blowing off a very cool air on my head. When i put on a blanket over my body I feel hot and when I take it off I feel that something is missing.

It it is really difficult to cope with this kind of weather or to any type of weather for that matter for the kind of health condition that I have. It is only better if the hot and humid weather makes me thirsty because of its dehydrating effects and then I would drink and at dialysis I would arrive still light and not waterlogged.

Gabapentin in the other hand makes me tolerate the hot and cold temperatures. I do not know but that is the effect on me. But right now bathing with cold water is not good as I would just shiver in cold maybe because of my low hemoglobin levels.

Anyway I wished that I have the ability to not eat anymore, it makes me feel toxic each and every meal because it adds purines in my blood and water in my system.

It is good if I am under a three times per week dialysis but with only a twice weekly dialysis I just have to be still very strict with my diet and my fluid intake so that I would not feel so ill in between my dialysis session days.

But as soon as I am financially free I could give it a try so that I could be better off with my life as dialysis patient. I am just sad that I came to this kind of life but at least I am surviving and was able to achieve much despite all things and factors are hard to manage.