I Am Not Eating Much Lately

I would only eat once a day because sometimes I will be just having a mayonnaise sandwich at night not because I am hungry but because I just have to put calories in my body.

I do not have much appetite and it is because of two reasons, my parents are not good cooks and I tried for them to cook my preferred meals only to make a botched job for it.

Now I am just letting them cook what they wanted which means the same meals day in and day out which the variety is what you can count in your fingers not to mention the taste.

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A fried pork should taste nice but when they do it it tastes salty and weird. Sometimes it is saturated with garlic which makes me feel nauseated more. I would then refuse to eat it or force myself to eat it just for me not to lose anymore body mass.

Now in the morning what do is to drink a thinned-out coffee and wait until the afternoon mealtime, at that point I can eat but not too much. After eating my meals I would take my medicines and vitamins and sit for a while because I do not want to have a gastric reflux with Cinacalcet in my stomach because it gives me a bitter taste in my mouth.

I actually don't get hungry, I am just forcing myself to eat which is why I am like intermittently fasting but unlike the typical one I just cannot eat that much for the reason that I do not have much appetite plus the cooking of my parents doesn't make me feel interested about taking those foods that they prepare.

It explains my current physical appearance, just skin and bones but I feel like I am as heavy as a mountain when I begin to move myself around.