I am compelled to get emotional about this crypto fallcalypse

cryptopie (81)in #cryptocurrency • 2 years ago

We could have been going so well if not because of these series of sandwiched catastrophes in this current time.

The overall markets a crashing and I guess that it will be the start of the great tribulation, all we are waiting for is the escalation of war in Europe then all of these that we are trying to build will be Kaput and like I said earlier if we do not get some resolution on that pointless war we all will continue to suffer. People are losing money left and right, crypto companies that are not serious about their work will all close shop, some crypto currency exchanges might lay-off some of their employees.

I am particularly scared if the crypto service where I cash out my BTC holdings would close leaving me with cryptos that I cannot convert with hard cash. Then what would happen to me if that unfortunate scenario would come and God forbid it won't happen because it will mean me my literal life as my hospital will not and is not taking cryptos as payment nor anyone around me are willing to help me with my financial needs. So I feel like I am so vulnerable with these kinds of scenarios and events because it is getting hard and might get harder for me to even survive if more shit hits the fan against my ability to be resilient and immune plus the fact that it affects my mental strength to endure these existential threat for my being.

So I could get into dire straits, danger, precarious, or call it whatever you want because this involves my very own existence. I am okay to evaporate but with a lingering death is a no-no for me. That is why I kept on trying to go to my regular dialysis treatment sessions because I do not want to experience a severe nausea where you would vomit so hard you will vomit all the contents of your stomach until you are already puking out bile and then taste it in your mouth, then there will be difficulty in breathing as you build-up fluids in your lungs due to the water not getting rid due to not being dialyzed, and getting drowned slowly in the process not to mention the mental effects of creatinine elevation that also elevates even when you are not eating or elevates more because you are not eating the body itself is producing more creatinine by the breakdown of your muscles because you are not eating, it is indeed a very slow process of dying that I am always evading for more then twenty years now.

Now all my finances are mostly in crypto, I have a small amount of money in my bank that I will just withdraw shortly. I would like to use it to buy some BTC perhaps but I guess that I needed some cash to help me bridge my essential needs until maybe next year. I also think that I will not be giving-away money to my nephews and nieces at their Christmas time because it had gotten harder to earn money now because I believe that we can never get through these crashes and spookiness in the markets overall until the problem in Russia is resolved and even maybe of the war ends the sanction against Russia will not be so easily lifted up unless there will be some developments or agreements over that crucial matter because it will involve access to the oil that the western countries like Germany and even USA needs.

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Crypto winter had cometh a not much hast prepared

In the bright side of things I think that at least I will not find myself bankrupted so easily because I still earn money, only that I will feel helpless is when I cannot cash out my cryptos and other than that I still have a deeper pocket compared to other people who are either unemployed or cannot work. My mother is also helping me out with my hospital bills by requesting financial assistance to government officials which had been stingy over the years, maybe because a whole lot of people are requesting the same because like now, life had been even more difficult where the source of income or the income of the people are defeated by the prices of commodities due to the fuel price hike that is not abating but getting worse.

For most people, having no money will not be an issue because they are healthy, doesn't go regularly to dialysis center like I do, and just can live off the land, can hunt for birds or other wild animals, forage for wild vegetables and leafy greens that are not recognized by common people but are comparatively more nutritious than store bought vegetables. But in my case as aforementioned having no money will mean that I will not survive within two weeks of not being dialyzed so at least I just have to get some means of earning bit, just enough to sustain me and will not find myself wanting and or bothering my relatives and friends to give me financial help which I will never do even if would mean my death and utter hardship in experiencing lingering death.

I couldn't say that I am still okay with what is happening not only to my life but to the whole world in general, I am angry, sad, upset, worrying, and in fear. What is going on is not okay and it is a possibility that after my lifetime all will not be okay still which can very well end these emotions after I rested in peace. I am just frustrated that I only have a little time in this world and I do not want to spend it with negative feelings in me, but that is just happening already.

So where can we go from here is the question, maybe pray harder, live every passing moment by burying your head in the sand? or try to survive by making use of anything or any means necessary or just accept our fate? Either which we choose we have to just put our fate in God, after all he said that the Lord Jesus will return and reign on earth for a thousand years and then the judgement day. I do not know how it play out but I want to be with God after this life which for me is just a transient home because in heaven with God is the real home of those that seek his mercy and salvation.