Dear Diary: What A Boring Life I Have Now

I realized that being a dialysis patient is not the main thing that I should be concerned of but the underlying complications that would arise from being a dialysis patient for a very long time. So it is better really to die early which will then make you lucky because you will get saved from hardships like what I am experiencing right now.

But some patients receive a proper care like those from rich countries and the patients are then avoiding rare complications as a result while in poor countries the doctors just are not so qualified in treating their patients that some of these patients like me suffers.

So my condition now had left me disabled and not able to do much except to be an Internet surfer via blogging and watching stuffs or listening to online music. But I probably have watched a ton of movies already and listen to lots of songs and music that I liked and I have gone weary of all that already.

Things are boring now and frustrating too with real pain enveloping my thoughts and physical existence. I just wished that I was that little energetic and euphoric boy again, full of hopes and dreams but now it was all shattered. I am just scrimmaging in this life hoping that I would win in a seemingly hopeless game of chance.