Dear Diary: Now That I Am Out Of School I Missed Schooling

I remember this pleasant moment when my parents asked me whether if I would want to go to this or that College, they just let me choose which private University or College in our province I wanted to pursue my schooling. I happily had chosen the best school and so I did went there to study Commerce, major in Management.

It was both exciting, fun, and also stressful at times because of my current not so good health condition. My mother was also pushing me to drink loads of water in conjunction with a saltless and tasteless food that they make me eat and it adds to hardship in my concentration to my studies.

I figured out that I was struggling to study when I was waking up so early in the morning just to read some books for a minor subject, so in short I was having a hard time studying a minor subject and more so in major ones plus the physical education terrified me that I could flunk it. But even though I struggled and had put my best efforts my grades went down so I decided to just not to go to class anymore and stop.

A few months later I received my grades through the mail. I thought that things will go well for me but it didn't. My kidney began to go downward spiral until it failed.

Now I am just wondering if I did finished my schooling it obviously would get better for me. I could have made more great memories and experiences in life, maybe more friends or I could have made a wife out from one of my classmates or co-workers. All of that I missed and my life went southland.

Now I do not know what is in for me in this lifetime but only God can tell and also maybe crypto will change my life and be kinder to me more than anything I have came across in this world. But I am still looking for the brightest side of my life, maybe some more time and I could see if there will ever be anything there still to see.