Dear Diary: My Plan When The Time Comes That I Will Be Disabled To Eat

My mouth and jaw, the whole of my face is endangered of getting the full blow of my bone condition because of its progression. I know really that there will come a time that I will be unable to chew my food and it is slowly happening right now because of the thickening of my frontal upper palate and my right molars sometimes striking my inner cheek walls.

Hyperparathyroidism is a terrible disease and it just as terrible as many illnesses out there combined because it is very difficult to manage and I also have to spend ridiculous amounts of special medicine for it but still it is uncontrollable. But I am still taking those drugs because it is the right thing to do in spite of the terrible burden on my body.

So I am just like slowing it in its tracks but will never completely eliminate it and it is a worry that shakes me off from my foundations. I am just trying to keep my mind off from that imminent scenario which is already embedded in my mind unfortunately.

Nothing that I can do but to sweat it out and suck it up because sometimes in this life we can't do anything about the things that are beyond our control and that is my situation right now which I am sharing in the blockchain. I am also just treasuring the people around me and my friends here at steemit that has the patience about my existence and loitering around your lives and I am thankful and grateful about it all.

So when the time comes that I can never eat anymore, well there isn't any paln because I think my fate is sealed and I will just have to live it through until the end.