Dear Diary: My Plan For A Much Relief For My Breathing Difficulties

I do not know why my body is still holding and enduring because of my breathing difficulties that had gone chronic already and it lead me already into an almost absolute bedridden state as I cannot really use my leg muscles to normally or properly walk because it is not only painful to walk but also my my leg muscles had gone weaker.

One problem like my long-standing breathing difficulty just made another problem of my immobility. Can I force it to walk? The answer is no as I am afraid to stumble down or trip over and break a bone or two and good luck for me if it would ever heal.

I tried walking before and told myself I just wanted to exercise my legs so that they won't lose mass and strength. Well that is easier said than done as firstly it is already difficult to breath and then I will exert myself with walking with a pair of painful feet joints and knees which have the same similar pain.

So it is ridiculous already so I do not know what to do and running out of options as my nurses are unable to really target my dry weight goal (the real body weight with no extra water/fluids). So if I would die then fluids in the lungs is the main culprit.

Now my Plan

As laughable as it sound but I will going to revert back in using my old heavy sandals and use it to add some weight to me prior to my dialysis. Now it will make an effect that I am heavier then I am not and the nurses will add that extra weight in the amount of fluids that they will take from my body. The other option is I will have to buy some new heavy sandals for the purpose.

Now What That Will Do?

Of course I will get drawn out with extra water and will make my breathing more free and it will make me at ease. That is how things work when extra water is drawn out from my system. Now why I can't just ask my nurses to take extra water from my body. The flying answer is no they will not do it and will just point out my recent BP crash issues in the past. So that is the plan and it may sound odd but it will work in my experience.