Dear Diary: I Wish To Get Fat

It seems that I can eat well lately because I was able to eat my breakfast unlike before, in fact I have finished eating this bowl of noodles with rice to add some calories to it which I truly needed. But about an hour before this meal I had a sandwich with only margarine as a filling into it.

That is the reason that I am happy because even though I am not currently using an appetite enhancer I am able to eat my food. I am always measuring my arms above my elbow to see if they are getting bigger and I am seeing some changes but it may take a few weeks if this thing continues then I might finally and hopefully get fat.

I just want to gain at least seven kilos because that was the extra water weight that my nurses had added to my dry weight which is the reason for my breathlessness. Now if I can convert that weight into real body mass even in a form of fat then it will definitely help me with my overall well-being, I just needed much prayers.

But anyway I am maybe recovering from the ill side-effects of my parathyroid medicine judging by the fact that I can eat and sometimes finish my food so I hope God would consider my sincere wish because I just want to feel normal that's all. I needed another miracle in my life.