Dear Diary: I Pray To God That My Face Won't Grow Much Bigger

Over the course of months I still feel and see that my face grows still and it does worries me much as it would mean that my facial disabilities could either get worse or another kind would pop out or both and I can also feel it in my mouth now as my speech gets affected. The bone in my palate above and below that tongue are still getting bigger and it is apparent in my speech sound.

I get frustrated when I talk to my nurses and they wouldn't understand and with that I also could not start a mere chat with my co-patients or anyone for that matter for the same reason.

I just wished that it I haven't gotten this kind of disabilities as if somebody is pinning me down and doesn't allow me to live my life like any other person. That is why I am always remembering the times that I am near normal where I can still move my body normally without much pain.

I hope that God would bless my medicines so that it would take an effect in a positive way because even though I am throwing money on it the medicines seems to not work fully hence my body pains and such.

It is a hard life and if I weren't a spiritual person I could have been a gonner now out of my own hands. Life for me is so precious still and it is indeed beautiful but I can only think about the beauty and not experience it like the rest of normal people around.