Dear Diary: I'm Topping-up Again With My Appetite-Busting Drug

I have no more Cinacalcet, my dreaded anti-hyperparathyroid drug that I do not want to take but I needed to take and I just pray to God that one day he would will it for me to never take this medicine again. I am just forced to buy and use this because it reverses the effects of hyperparathyroidism similar to having my Parathyroid removed.

That is why my pains are a bit alleviated and my facial bone stopped and even shrunk a bit and also now I am no longer suffering from my lingering back pain although until now I could not last sitting around too long or I would cry in pain. But still the effect of this medicine just made my life a little bearable.

I would like to be taken off with this kind of nauseating drug, it just caused me a considerable loss in my appetite and living with no ability to enjoy food really makes me feel depressed and frustrated about my boring life made miserable by this medicine.

But I have no choice or I would suffer lingering pain again and more possibly the continuation of the enlargement of my facial bone which I really do not want to happen even in my nightmares.

But never ceases to shine in my heart that I could get better soon and I will be doing without this drug in my life. Maybe if my parathyroid would get into its normal state again that my doctor would possibly tell me to stop taking this drug anymore then that would be the finest news I will ever receive in my ears that they would flap in happiness.

I say that it could be possible because I am careful in my diet which had gotten ever so strict because of my lactose intolerance issues plus I am taking my phosphate binder just to assure myself that I would not be having a high phosphorus level in my blood that is actually the cause of my parathyroid going hyper with its function.

So I pray to God to please help me with my illness, it is just robbing me of the quality of my life and it had been so hard to live with no ability to enjoy food and eating as it seems is like a chore that I have to do everyday.