Dear Diary: I'm Readying Up Again For Dialysis

I already drank a lot of liquids and I am breathless already. My mother prepared me some fried pork and I was able to eat my lunch-dinner combo which us what I am doing lately for the reason that it makes me go thrifty in my fluid intake and my phosphate binder which is a medicine that is expensive so I have to make it last.

I really can't afford to eat frequently because I get filled with fluids fast and it makes me go breathless so I just choose to eat twice a day but it has a detrimental effect on my body weight and I can't seem to add some weight. Now I gave it all up and I will just eat if I can.

Fortunately I was able to diminish the bitter taste in my mouth by sitting for some time after eating and taking my parathyroid medicine. The same I do when I take my NSAIDs so that it won't make some esophageal disturbance and it took time for me to realize that because I was eating while lying down all the time due to my back bone issue.

After dialysis my breathlessness will get alleviated but not totally but it is not the only thing that I am battling but also my hip joint that is now the issue that I am worrying after my backbone issue, such a life this is.