Dear Diary: I Haven't Eaten Good Yesterday

It is already Monday here in my neck of the woods and I am just looking-forward this morning when I can maybe eat my usual and untiring (hopefully) stir-fried noodles in which I could eat without really getting tired of its taste maybe because of the seasonings that they put in it or maybe it is just tasty enough for my poor appetite.

It is good that at least I could eat and that is important because most patients that takes a parathyroid medicine gives up because of its nasty and terrible side-effects plus it really doesn't cure the disease but rather just controls it.

But if a patient would take it three times a day which is impossible because of the said reasons plus of its prohibitive cost. It is much better for me to have my needed surgery and I am waiting for cryptos to allow me to choose the best treatment for me but without adequate funding I just have to wait and wait.

But I have to take that medicine because it does good to my body with regards to my pains particularly in my backbone where a few months ago is just giving me a misery because of the pain. But now it is no longer giving me a lingering pain.

The pain is almost gone but it was replaced by difficulty in eating which is the only thing that I was enjoying but now I could not enjoy it because of my parathyroid medicine's awful side-effect.

I am always on the wait for my dialysis because it is the only time that I could enjoy eating, such a small time to feel normal. I just wished that my dialysis is every other day or maybe everyday with peritoneal dialysis. But I am not losing hope, I am as patient as a rock so I will wait and be ever so persistent on working about my health goals and ask God for blessings that I could achieve them with his help. May God have mercy.