Dear Diary: I Am Lucky to Have My Parents Still Around

That bulge on my arm saved my life a lot of times already for being operational and not clogging upon me

When we get sick or really in trouble in our lives who do we call? For my case its my parents, and it is for obvious reasons that I am disabled. I must insist my father to take that parking spot for disabled persons tho. Today I can't even walk at ease unlike a few months ago and it is still getting worst. So my prayers are being at least still able to walk despite it is painful and I fear that I will get paralyzed anytime which also a very big possibility and not getting my eyesight affected by my bone condition.

My father is the one that I call when I want to do things around the house like today I sent him to the rusty roof of our house to spin the antenna of my broadband modem just to pickup some 4G signal but it was hopeless and I am back too 3g that cannot play or stream videos or load pages that fast. Father also had it setup there too and I just hope that this network that I am using just upgrades their system.

The switch to the buzzer my father made so that I can call Mother

My father also drives me to and from where I want especially to the hospital and he had made many times rescued me when I am in an emergency situations way back and you can never be so thankful for that. This made me think that if he would not be around anymore, what a very difficult time for me so I don't even think of it.

Mother also does most of the work for me and I just buzz her now when I needed her. I said "buzz" because my father made a buzzer so that I can be heard easily rather than I call her with my voice but I seldom use it. She also cooks most of our foods which is I am crying about because she really cannot cook. I sometimes tell her to cook this or that but it was always a fail. That is why I ordered a mash potato mix online so that when I don't like the food, I request her that.

I was the one doing the cooking before and the same foods too, I enjoyed the taste but now things are not the same with a big difference. Now I don't request for doing a recipe especially if I would give money for it or I will just get disappointed. But my mother doe the laundry like a pro and the clothes smells like heaven when she does it and I would miss it if she would not be able to do laundries anymore.

I am always thinking to go and die before my parents and with this situation, that idea is the best for me if nothing can be done anymore for my health. So my plan is to really kind of reverse what is happening to my body and live life and whaat it has to offer for me and the people around me.